01-21-2015, 03:17 AM
DAY 15:
I am really finding it difficult to wake up for the past two days!
Had some really crazy dreams. Past two days have been really difficult for me to put up with.
I am going through a very emotional time, circumstances are putting pressure on me. Its not the sub I feel. I got to make some really life changing decisions. Somehow I think I need more time. I would love to wait till the end of august. Its getting increasingly difficult to focus on my job because of all this. I think for the past few years it has been like this on and off, but my addiction to porn helped me to escape from the reality. This only helped the problems grow bigger and bigger and I am just finding myself not knowing how to handle it. Since quitting porn, on and off for the past few months, I am feeling like a child who has suddenly beein thrown into a world full of adults. Ive got to learn so many things so fast. I will not go back to porn however, I have decided to face the reality, eventhough for most of the day I am horny as hell despite the fact that I have no interest in women in general. Its all so damn strange. Since starting AM6 I am beginning to value myself more and more, little by little, yet that hopless feeling that nothing I do is actually giving me the kind of results I want is creeping in, and that includes doubts on the AM6 sub, but in the past I've had good results with the subs from IML, that I use as a way to convince myself to keep continuing and have faith.
Though, an adult who has been laid a couple of times, I still feel like a virgin when it comes to relationships and understanding it. Just not matured enough to understand that other people too have feelings and their moods and preferences can change, its a constant thing. Actually I do understand, but just not able to accept it. Well, in the end of AM6 I hope this problem is going to be lesser and I will throw in my effort too. Again, I don't blame porn for it, but I blame MY PAST pornograpic addiction which put me in a back foot for not giving enough time towards relationships.
Atleast, I am in a fortunate position to understand my problems and start adrressing it one by one.
Now physical part:
In the past two months Ive put on some weight, enough to turn my six packs to family pack. For now I plan to do nothing about that as I am doing yoga and other streaching exersices to focus on increasing my height. In the past month I have been able to grow few centimeters. I used HGH enhancer to help me out, now I take two pills of Arginine, multi vitamins and some protien supliments to boost the growth. its working slowly. I hope to start running from next week though. This will keep the fat in check. I hope to start transforming myself from inside out for the next few months or the 1st half of this year. These changes should help me to choose the best direction I need to take to live my life to the fullest.
I am really finding it difficult to wake up for the past two days!
Had some really crazy dreams. Past two days have been really difficult for me to put up with.
I am going through a very emotional time, circumstances are putting pressure on me. Its not the sub I feel. I got to make some really life changing decisions. Somehow I think I need more time. I would love to wait till the end of august. Its getting increasingly difficult to focus on my job because of all this. I think for the past few years it has been like this on and off, but my addiction to porn helped me to escape from the reality. This only helped the problems grow bigger and bigger and I am just finding myself not knowing how to handle it. Since quitting porn, on and off for the past few months, I am feeling like a child who has suddenly beein thrown into a world full of adults. Ive got to learn so many things so fast. I will not go back to porn however, I have decided to face the reality, eventhough for most of the day I am horny as hell despite the fact that I have no interest in women in general. Its all so damn strange. Since starting AM6 I am beginning to value myself more and more, little by little, yet that hopless feeling that nothing I do is actually giving me the kind of results I want is creeping in, and that includes doubts on the AM6 sub, but in the past I've had good results with the subs from IML, that I use as a way to convince myself to keep continuing and have faith.
Though, an adult who has been laid a couple of times, I still feel like a virgin when it comes to relationships and understanding it. Just not matured enough to understand that other people too have feelings and their moods and preferences can change, its a constant thing. Actually I do understand, but just not able to accept it. Well, in the end of AM6 I hope this problem is going to be lesser and I will throw in my effort too. Again, I don't blame porn for it, but I blame MY PAST pornograpic addiction which put me in a back foot for not giving enough time towards relationships.
Atleast, I am in a fortunate position to understand my problems and start adrressing it one by one.
Now physical part:
In the past two months Ive put on some weight, enough to turn my six packs to family pack. For now I plan to do nothing about that as I am doing yoga and other streaching exersices to focus on increasing my height. In the past month I have been able to grow few centimeters. I used HGH enhancer to help me out, now I take two pills of Arginine, multi vitamins and some protien supliments to boost the growth. its working slowly. I hope to start running from next week though. This will keep the fat in check. I hope to start transforming myself from inside out for the next few months or the 1st half of this year. These changes should help me to choose the best direction I need to take to live my life to the fullest.
'Evolution depends on the variation within a species.'
Charles Darwin
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Charles Darwin
