01-19-2015, 08:46 AM
(This post was last modified: 01-19-2015, 08:47 AM by ben123456305.)
Stage 1 day 6 1/18/15
Last night when I started to listen to AM5. Anger started boiling inside me because of how my friends and I were treating my closest friend. He is the typical nice guy that's overly attached to this one girl for a good 3-4 years. He complains about how women walk all over him and such. My friends and I were continuously putting him down for those reasons and because he was stubborn about it (would not accept help). I realized I hated the "nice guy" part of me and I started verbally insulting my friend because of I believed he was the embodiment of "the nice guy" inside me. After realizing this I am going to try and treat him better.
I guess one step of being alpha is to stop needlessly putting blame on others because of myself?
Had some more dreams recently that were memorable:
-I was fighting some kind of monster. Every time I kill one, more would spawn. Suddenly I thought "Take it by the roots". So I broke through the entire platform and revealed the source of all the monsters I was fighting against. I destroyed the source of it.
-I felt like I was a zombie wandering through an apartment. Everything was pure white in this apartment. I started noticing that I tripping alarms and that signaled my presence. Eventually I walked up to the second floor and I began fighting this trance for my consciousnesses. I collapsed on the floor afterwards. I lose the fight and my consciousness gets sent to empty space where a white figure told me that it "was my true nightmare" with a blood red grin. That freaked me out really hard and I tried to physically wake up but my mind was lagging behind.
I dont know what the second dream means but the first might mean I am getting to the heart of one problem and clearing it?
@AlphaMind
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Last night when I started to listen to AM5. Anger started boiling inside me because of how my friends and I were treating my closest friend. He is the typical nice guy that's overly attached to this one girl for a good 3-4 years. He complains about how women walk all over him and such. My friends and I were continuously putting him down for those reasons and because he was stubborn about it (would not accept help). I realized I hated the "nice guy" part of me and I started verbally insulting my friend because of I believed he was the embodiment of "the nice guy" inside me. After realizing this I am going to try and treat him better.
I guess one step of being alpha is to stop needlessly putting blame on others because of myself?
Had some more dreams recently that were memorable:
-I was fighting some kind of monster. Every time I kill one, more would spawn. Suddenly I thought "Take it by the roots". So I broke through the entire platform and revealed the source of all the monsters I was fighting against. I destroyed the source of it.
-I felt like I was a zombie wandering through an apartment. Everything was pure white in this apartment. I started noticing that I tripping alarms and that signaled my presence. Eventually I walked up to the second floor and I began fighting this trance for my consciousnesses. I collapsed on the floor afterwards. I lose the fight and my consciousness gets sent to empty space where a white figure told me that it "was my true nightmare" with a blood red grin. That freaked me out really hard and I tried to physically wake up but my mind was lagging behind.
I dont know what the second dream means but the first might mean I am getting to the heart of one problem and clearing it?
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