01-14-2015, 06:53 PM
(This post was last modified: 01-14-2015, 06:54 PM by naturalself.)
Tonight was interesting, after such a positive morning haha
had been visualizing girls approaching me, and my mindset etc
felt pretty terrible from a lot of resistance and stayed in house most of the day so i decided i'd go out to a bar on my own, which i've never done before
i went out walking and the bar i wanted to go to was closed, so kept walking
I felt so self conscious the whole time, so much wanting of approval, etc. Kept looking at women on the street/sidewalk and feeling needy.
Finally got to another bar that looked cool but all of a sudden just snapped.. and asked myself what the **** am I doing.. got pretty angry at the fact that i have been letting women distract me from my purpose/work. came to the conclusion i really want to dive in my work, and also get my own basic life stuff much more together together (money, style, basic confidence, values, skills like cooking etc.) before I dive in the women thing fully. The one thing I really need to work on in the meantime to prepare for WM is to loosen up socially so I can simply meet more people. The mindset should take care of the rest.
it just so happens that this seems to be the point of alpha male (get your own crap together THEN deal with the women)... SO I think the program is working very well. Shannon even said something about stage 1 losing interest in women. It hadn't really happened until tonight. We'll see how things progress. It was a very productive(but painful) walk, haha
had been visualizing girls approaching me, and my mindset etc
felt pretty terrible from a lot of resistance and stayed in house most of the day so i decided i'd go out to a bar on my own, which i've never done before
i went out walking and the bar i wanted to go to was closed, so kept walking
I felt so self conscious the whole time, so much wanting of approval, etc. Kept looking at women on the street/sidewalk and feeling needy.
Finally got to another bar that looked cool but all of a sudden just snapped.. and asked myself what the **** am I doing.. got pretty angry at the fact that i have been letting women distract me from my purpose/work. came to the conclusion i really want to dive in my work, and also get my own basic life stuff much more together together (money, style, basic confidence, values, skills like cooking etc.) before I dive in the women thing fully. The one thing I really need to work on in the meantime to prepare for WM is to loosen up socially so I can simply meet more people. The mindset should take care of the rest.
it just so happens that this seems to be the point of alpha male (get your own crap together THEN deal with the women)... SO I think the program is working very well. Shannon even said something about stage 1 losing interest in women. It hadn't really happened until tonight. We'll see how things progress. It was a very productive(but painful) walk, haha
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