ICEMAN Evolution AM6

[iceman]

STAGE 1:
DAY 7:

Despite the fact that I recoverd from pornographic addiction (used subs) I did tend to go back once in a while and ended up feeling like shit, but for the past few days, I have been trying to understand the reasons, even though I don't have the strong urges, I was trying to understand why I did what I did. I found a lot of reasons, there are too many to mention, but in short, I am avoiding even pinterest, FB and other websites which might trigger. Another thing I notice is that when I go back to porn I am affected by Porn induced ED Immediately for the next few days, but when I stop it for a few weeks I recover, I did use OED subs few months back and it did an amazing job, but I didn't do the amazing job of quitting porn all together. I went back to porn when I realized that I am not able to get laid when ever I want! and I really thought it was okay, but in my case I notice its not okay. I need to stop shagging and watch porn for a significant amount of time, not just for ED issues, but in general. Its been two days since i made this decision, and I am already imagining the outcome, how I will behave, how people are going to respond to me, communicate, and amazing thing is that I am already noticing the results. Why didn't I do it earlier? Silly me. Gary Wilson's interview video that I found in youtube is helping me a lot to understand why despite the fact that I did overcome pornographic addiction I went back. I need a total reboot and I am okay even if I don't get laid for the next few months. Yep, I meant it. Because this reboot stuff (its been only two days) and I am seeing amazing results. Some might ask me, why didn't I get the same kind of results when I attempted to reboot last time? I didn't watch porn, but I imagined it and shaged when I wasn't getting laid, but that was like once a week. Even that is going to be denied plus, I am armed with the new knowledge, plus I am running AM6.

Now, back to the sub. Insane dreams, just insane, as with other confident building subs, I dreamt me of finding myself naked in front of my family and relatives! Ah cmon, why? Heard a song (in the dream) and I was with my mom at that time, and both of us start crying, and I asked her if she was crying for the same reason as I was, and she replied yes. The singer in that song used to look like my aunt (her younger sister) and my aunt died at a very young age. And my other aunt asks why am I crying, I am man, and I reply, 'I am bold at many things, but I can also be a pussy sometimes!' I didn't see that coming!

After I woke up and got ready to go to the office, I just feel the positive vibe in me, like something good happened to me, like I won a lottery or I had sex with my lover for breakfast. That happiness that you can't contain, you have to literally stop smiling. I don't know why or how I feel the way I felt, but I would love to be like this for the rest of my life regrardless of what shit happens.

People want to talk to me more, I notice even more things, people who normally wouldn't say anything are saying something. One lady working in bar who would just take the money and say thank you, smiled and wished, the other elder woman was pusing a cart (in the bar) stopped and smiled, a douche from the office offered me a coffee(after lunch and he already paid for it) , which i refused saying I just drink one coffee in the morning, but he still insisted and I insisted I won't but thank you. (normally I would say yes, just to be nice, but I found a way to say 'NO' in a nice way) I politely asked my other colleague if he wanted a coffee and he said yes.

I am meditating too, but at this stage, its for gratitude. I didn't expect AM6 to impact me so fast, seriously and I am still not sure how, is it because I am combining it with meditation? I don't know, but I have been using the sub for more than 15 hours a day.

Its only 2pm, wonder what does the rest of the day have in store for me.