Ben12's Journey to tranformation

[I am a self helper]

Day 26 12/27/14
-This entire month has been the longest time i have felt depression in recent memory. The resistance was building up and snowballing together until recently when it stopped. At its worst I felt and my mind thought the sub was ripping me apart layer by layer. The sub eventually hit the core and its filled with negative emotion and jealousy was the one I felt the most. Now I feel better and external events have less of an emotional impact to me and I feel happier in general.
-I never thought there was that much junk inside of me. Its funny to think how probably all my actions was controlled/affected by this core of jealousy.

Thanks for the post Ben,
I have been feeling about the same for the past month or so, I thought it was due to lack of sleep, schedule changes and life in general. I didn't associate it with resisting the sub. It is good to know that it should be coming to an end soon.