01-12-2011, 04:52 PM
may the force be with u Spiral, and I def gotta keep the faith I'm starting
to question everything again, maybe to much..Its all this talk of Alpha 2011
I'm really losing patience, despite my little girly whining about Alpha
feeling like its not working, the truth is I know it working just not in the ways I necessarily wanted, cause I'm a caged beast again. I cant stop moving and doing and acting and THINKING! Alpha has really helped me with meeting women at parties and nightlife, where socializing is the 'thing to do' but during the daytime u can just forget about it, its like the last thing I would want to do is talk to a women, even if I 'want to talk to her'. There is no approach anxiety, literally zero, just a large resistance to engaging and still some fear of public judgment in really crowded places, just a wee bit left as this used to be huge for me. Sure I'll chat women up when its situational but I'm not 'bringing it' like I do at night. Vampire syndrome. The biggest reason I know Alpha's working is cause I can feel my suffering at not living my fullest all the freakin time, where I am holding back, where I feel trapped etc. Anyway stage 4 in 2 days, then back to stage 3 or 1 of 2011 as soon as that comes out, tbd.
to question everything again, maybe to much..Its all this talk of Alpha 2011
I'm really losing patience, despite my little girly whining about Alpha
feeling like its not working, the truth is I know it working just not in the ways I necessarily wanted, cause I'm a caged beast again. I cant stop moving and doing and acting and THINKING! Alpha has really helped me with meeting women at parties and nightlife, where socializing is the 'thing to do' but during the daytime u can just forget about it, its like the last thing I would want to do is talk to a women, even if I 'want to talk to her'. There is no approach anxiety, literally zero, just a large resistance to engaging and still some fear of public judgment in really crowded places, just a wee bit left as this used to be huge for me. Sure I'll chat women up when its situational but I'm not 'bringing it' like I do at night. Vampire syndrome. The biggest reason I know Alpha's working is cause I can feel my suffering at not living my fullest all the freakin time, where I am holding back, where I feel trapped etc. Anyway stage 4 in 2 days, then back to stage 3 or 1 of 2011 as soon as that comes out, tbd.
1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.