11-22-2014, 02:27 PM
Stage 4 day 7
The day started with me having a dream. I was in a van and there was a cute girl driving and then we hit a stop because another women around 18 to 20 was crossing the road. As she was crossing she stopped and stared into the van slowly approached talked to the girl driving and got in. As the other girl was driving the one who got in the van sat down on me. I was pretty much kool with both of them but the one who sat on me wanted me hardcore and the one driving was saying get her number and attempting to make out with her , almost as if she was jealous.
Other then that I feel pretty good I paid my old circle a visit one guy owes me 500 plus dollars another 100 , I wanted to know if they intend on paying me back so either I dismiss them for good or keep around as genuine friends.
I started singing today lol something like I don't want to hear your bull**** it was funny but I forgot the sequence of the song.
I notice that I watch less tv , listen to music on my terms as in I don't listen to the radio like I use too; I enjoy silence now.
I was thinking about going out tonight idk yet. As far as subs go im leaning towards WM now , I feel like AM has made a bit too serious and I could use more playfulness. My game AKA inner self is more of a sex magnet type so WM would be more of a challenge for me. AS im writing this one of my buddies who owes me the 100$ just called me saying he needs a wingman. I think hes trying to be kool with me again.
I was also thinking on how this subs work , because it seems like people are reading my mind I never understood that. Anywho it seems to motivate those around me as well I noticed my old circle of friends are taking action and doing similar things that will lead to path of alpha.
I was also paying attention to people and their need for control / manipulation funny how that works.
Idk how I feel about relationships anymore , im starting to feel like I used too I just cant be in a full committed relationship maybe I haven't met the right one but yet my other girl could be just that; I was visiting her this past Wednesday and one interesting thing I noticed is how fast she took her clothes off when I meant business that seamed like a record to me I was secretly laughing at that lol.
That's all for now sincerely your friendly neighborhood Jackpot...
The day started with me having a dream. I was in a van and there was a cute girl driving and then we hit a stop because another women around 18 to 20 was crossing the road. As she was crossing she stopped and stared into the van slowly approached talked to the girl driving and got in. As the other girl was driving the one who got in the van sat down on me. I was pretty much kool with both of them but the one who sat on me wanted me hardcore and the one driving was saying get her number and attempting to make out with her , almost as if she was jealous.
Other then that I feel pretty good I paid my old circle a visit one guy owes me 500 plus dollars another 100 , I wanted to know if they intend on paying me back so either I dismiss them for good or keep around as genuine friends.
I started singing today lol something like I don't want to hear your bull**** it was funny but I forgot the sequence of the song.
I notice that I watch less tv , listen to music on my terms as in I don't listen to the radio like I use too; I enjoy silence now.
I was thinking about going out tonight idk yet. As far as subs go im leaning towards WM now , I feel like AM has made a bit too serious and I could use more playfulness. My game AKA inner self is more of a sex magnet type so WM would be more of a challenge for me. AS im writing this one of my buddies who owes me the 100$ just called me saying he needs a wingman. I think hes trying to be kool with me again.
I was also thinking on how this subs work , because it seems like people are reading my mind I never understood that. Anywho it seems to motivate those around me as well I noticed my old circle of friends are taking action and doing similar things that will lead to path of alpha.
I was also paying attention to people and their need for control / manipulation funny how that works.
Idk how I feel about relationships anymore , im starting to feel like I used too I just cant be in a full committed relationship maybe I haven't met the right one but yet my other girl could be just that; I was visiting her this past Wednesday and one interesting thing I noticed is how fast she took her clothes off when I meant business that seamed like a record to me I was secretly laughing at that lol.
That's all for now sincerely your friendly neighborhood Jackpot...
It always seems impossible until it's done."_ Nelson Mandela
"Continuous improvement is better then delayed perfection."_ Mark Twain
"We change the world not by what we say or do, but as a consequence of what we have become. " _ Dr. David Hawkins
