11-21-2014, 07:50 AM
Day 82
Euphoria went away and like fog rising after the battle it showed the results. And the result seems to be huge hole somewhere in me. I know it sounds terrible, but it's good
I mean it's better that there is vacuum now rather than burden and poison. Some of it tries to creep in again, but it's not persistent and I'm able to redirect my thoughts when it happens. Right now it fills with hope and dream of better day, hopefully it will fill it whole. But even now, half-empty I feel good, much lighter. It's so much easier to be open now, to smile and talk with people. Even my eye contact is longer and more confident.
Euphoria went away and like fog rising after the battle it showed the results. And the result seems to be huge hole somewhere in me. I know it sounds terrible, but it's good
I mean it's better that there is vacuum now rather than burden and poison. Some of it tries to creep in again, but it's not persistent and I'm able to redirect my thoughts when it happens. Right now it fills with hope and dream of better day, hopefully it will fill it whole. But even now, half-empty I feel good, much lighter. It's so much easier to be open now, to smile and talk with people. Even my eye contact is longer and more confident.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
