01-09-2011, 03:01 PM
YESS,
the light
Shannon what do u mean by Alpha could be alot better than what your seeing reporter hear?
does that mean Alpha 2010 is up to bar but an Alpha set could be WAY better
or does it mean the reports on Alpha 2010 sounds like weak sauce compared to what its supposed to be. Alot of the really 'good' things are happening to the Alpha users seem to be the subliminal forcing the user to consciously change certain things in their lives. It seems to be a more indirect improvement. Cause while I do really like the changes I am seeing, they seem very internal. I don't really ever feel 'good' anymore. Like ever! My self worth has never been so high but nothing really does it for me anymore, nothing in the external world seems that worthwhile except things that are ridiculously challenging, I have been having more regular sex since stage three and it really barely does anything for me, I can't just enjoy chilling out, cage animal feeling, there seems to be a disconnect with all my friends, and am 'grinding my gears' at work 7 days a week trying to move out of my mom's. I definitely feel different and have changed, much more powerful and mature, but this is not at all what I expected, I feel more empty than self fulfilled-I almost don't even care about feeling good anymore- except for the occasional amazing day-I guess if it brings me to it, it'll bring me through it though it-just gotta keep going.
the light
Shannon what do u mean by Alpha could be alot better than what your seeing reporter hear?
does that mean Alpha 2010 is up to bar but an Alpha set could be WAY better
or does it mean the reports on Alpha 2010 sounds like weak sauce compared to what its supposed to be. Alot of the really 'good' things are happening to the Alpha users seem to be the subliminal forcing the user to consciously change certain things in their lives. It seems to be a more indirect improvement. Cause while I do really like the changes I am seeing, they seem very internal. I don't really ever feel 'good' anymore. Like ever! My self worth has never been so high but nothing really does it for me anymore, nothing in the external world seems that worthwhile except things that are ridiculously challenging, I have been having more regular sex since stage three and it really barely does anything for me, I can't just enjoy chilling out, cage animal feeling, there seems to be a disconnect with all my friends, and am 'grinding my gears' at work 7 days a week trying to move out of my mom's. I definitely feel different and have changed, much more powerful and mature, but this is not at all what I expected, I feel more empty than self fulfilled-I almost don't even care about feeling good anymore- except for the occasional amazing day-I guess if it brings me to it, it'll bring me through it though it-just gotta keep going.
1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
