11-08-2014, 11:30 AM
Still experiencing some resistance so I wasn't in the best mood in the last days. But anyway, I know the sub is doing it's work due to some situations I was in. For example I had lunch and some people I know were there and some I don't know. Even if I felt depressed the given day I felt pretty open to the people. So they started talking to me about different things, even the guy I didn't know. Another day there was a guy I didn't know, too, and he also started talking and came also with different topics. So OAA makes me MUCH more approachable. Even on my bad days I am much more open and approachable than I have been on my best days before doing SM and AM.
The same with other areas of my life. Yesterday I was somehow horny and went to a porn website. But after looking for about a minute on some pics I just started to find it....well...boring - somehow. So I turned off the computer and went out. I wasn't in a club or something, but anyway I wanted to be somewhere where I had a chance to meet other people.
When it comes to women so there isn't much happened. This is also due to the reason that there were just a lot of things that went plain wrong in the last weeks. And even the things that didn't go completely wrong didn't work in the way as expected. Some of the things lead even to more outgoings so some of the debts I paid off raised again. I have been thinking if I am also in some kind of cycle. However, all the things together make it difficult right now. I hope I overcome this bad patch soon.
The same with other areas of my life. Yesterday I was somehow horny and went to a porn website. But after looking for about a minute on some pics I just started to find it....well...boring - somehow. So I turned off the computer and went out. I wasn't in a club or something, but anyway I wanted to be somewhere where I had a chance to meet other people.
When it comes to women so there isn't much happened. This is also due to the reason that there were just a lot of things that went plain wrong in the last weeks. And even the things that didn't go completely wrong didn't work in the way as expected. Some of the things lead even to more outgoings so some of the debts I paid off raised again. I have been thinking if I am also in some kind of cycle. However, all the things together make it difficult right now. I hope I overcome this bad patch soon.
