11-03-2014, 04:27 AM
(This post was last modified: 11-03-2014, 02:54 PM by Mystic Pymp.)
Day 64
Early update, but I don't think anything interesting will happen down the road and I have something to let out of my chest, so here it comes. I was experimenting with Law of Attraction for a long time and it never really worked. Of course while exercising it there were coincidences, but nothing beyond normal existence (it's easy to attribute things when you really hard want to). Also I've always had this strange kind of luck or intuition that helped me make right decisions and avoid really bad things, luck in everything but social part of life. Recently I've been doing lots of visualization, both in hope to attract somebody and to give myself some hope. Anyhow today it was the fourth time I met my past sweetheart this month. Why is it surprising? Because in semester before that I've met her only once! So it's like 20-fold increase in probability! And I know I'm thinking about her because LTU forces me to face my demons, analyze them and deal with them, but if LOA is behind this them damn it, I don't want it. Why can't I attract someone else? I don't think it's universe telling me to talk with her and sort this out because even though I'd love to do it I will not talk with her in Collage about it and I can't meet up with her because her boyfriend is super jealous about me.
Good news is this encounter didn't leave me sad or confused as last time. Quite the opposite actually, I feel empowered and confident. Thank a lot ERPHA & OGSF!
So TL;DR Law of Attraction is making a fool out me recently. Any advice?
Edit later that day
Well, something happened. We'll see if it's of consequence.
Early update, but I don't think anything interesting will happen down the road and I have something to let out of my chest, so here it comes. I was experimenting with Law of Attraction for a long time and it never really worked. Of course while exercising it there were coincidences, but nothing beyond normal existence (it's easy to attribute things when you really hard want to). Also I've always had this strange kind of luck or intuition that helped me make right decisions and avoid really bad things, luck in everything but social part of life. Recently I've been doing lots of visualization, both in hope to attract somebody and to give myself some hope. Anyhow today it was the fourth time I met my past sweetheart this month. Why is it surprising? Because in semester before that I've met her only once! So it's like 20-fold increase in probability! And I know I'm thinking about her because LTU forces me to face my demons, analyze them and deal with them, but if LOA is behind this them damn it, I don't want it. Why can't I attract someone else? I don't think it's universe telling me to talk with her and sort this out because even though I'd love to do it I will not talk with her in Collage about it and I can't meet up with her because her boyfriend is super jealous about me.
Good news is this encounter didn't leave me sad or confused as last time. Quite the opposite actually, I feel empowered and confident. Thank a lot ERPHA & OGSF!
So TL;DR Law of Attraction is making a fool out me recently. Any advice?
Edit later that day
Well, something happened. We'll see if it's of consequence.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
