11-02-2014, 03:52 AM
My first week of stage 2 is almost over. In the first few days of the stage I probably hit some resistance because I felt depressed and tired all the time. I was even thinking on giving up this sub. Yesterday was the first day I felt better. I started to feel more open. I was caring about not getting friendzoned in the past, but now I even start on don't caring about that. Besides of this one I also was pretty productive yesterday. I was working almost all the day on things that had to be done and I literally had to force myself to stop working in the evening. The last time I remember being so productive was at stage 3 of AM6. This night I had a dream about a woman. She was hot and started to get closer but I pushed her away in a not-gentleman like manner several times. Then I realized that it was wrong to act like this and I excused myself for doing this stuff. It was a honest feeling of regret and not something to make her still like me. Later in the dream there was a guy pinning me down on the floor. It was like he tried to be dominant. I pushed him away, too. It's like I am pushing people away to make them respect me because I felt this way in the dream.
