10-03-2014, 10:46 AM
Day 33
I wanted to do a summary, but I simply couldn't. The reason is simple - it's hard for me to evaluate my progress. It's all been very varied recently. Sometimes I feel great, optimistic and over the moon, but other times I fell down and I want only to be left alone. Because of this it's hard to say if there was a progress of how much of it there was.
This week had been good so far, or at least as good as I could hope. Moving into the new flat and start of academic year brought some stress and in this situation LTU is of little help, but when stress free everything was quite good. I befriended my new flatmates and it's easy for me to find common tongue with them. I got used to new environment quickly and soon I'll feel in there like home.
I listen to LTU less than in September, only about 10 hour per day. I try to listen to it whenever I can, but playing it on speakers isn't good idea and I can only listen so much on headphones. I still listen to it during the night. I think it's still enough and maybe it's even for the better because I will have now studying and social life to focus on, but I'll try to catch up a bit during the free weekend.
One interesting thing I've noticed in my thinking is that I am quite optimistic that I will find a girlfriend during this academic year. And it's not a wishful thinking, it's more like an intuition. I'm not entirely sure if it's a good think because since forever it's been source of my complexes. One of the reasons why I started LTU was to understand that I don't need to prove anything by having a girlfriend, and instead I'm confident I'll find one.
I wanted to do a summary, but I simply couldn't. The reason is simple - it's hard for me to evaluate my progress. It's all been very varied recently. Sometimes I feel great, optimistic and over the moon, but other times I fell down and I want only to be left alone. Because of this it's hard to say if there was a progress of how much of it there was.
This week had been good so far, or at least as good as I could hope. Moving into the new flat and start of academic year brought some stress and in this situation LTU is of little help, but when stress free everything was quite good. I befriended my new flatmates and it's easy for me to find common tongue with them. I got used to new environment quickly and soon I'll feel in there like home.
I listen to LTU less than in September, only about 10 hour per day. I try to listen to it whenever I can, but playing it on speakers isn't good idea and I can only listen so much on headphones. I still listen to it during the night. I think it's still enough and maybe it's even for the better because I will have now studying and social life to focus on, but I'll try to catch up a bit during the free weekend.
One interesting thing I've noticed in my thinking is that I am quite optimistic that I will find a girlfriend during this academic year. And it's not a wishful thinking, it's more like an intuition. I'm not entirely sure if it's a good think because since forever it's been source of my complexes. One of the reasons why I started LTU was to understand that I don't need to prove anything by having a girlfriend, and instead I'm confident I'll find one.
