09-30-2014, 05:32 PM
Phase 2 was similar to phase 1 in that the first two weeks I had very strange and vivid dreams. When I woke up, I felt relieved of something that I had been carrying with me, such as an old belief, or a grudge against someone or unforgiveness toward myself or another. Some true healing began in reference to my relationships with men, namely my fear that I would attract another man that was not compatible with me and I would suffer from it.
At the time, I thought this a negative, but now looking back at it, I see it as the best thing that could possibly have happened because it meant I was standing up for myself. I started to disagree with people - OUT LOUD. Not in a verbally abusive way or anything, my arguments were sound, fact based and logical, I was just able to stand up for myself, for my beliefs and for my knowledge in a way that I never had been able to before - with EVERYONE. Some people thought I was argumentative, and it did seem like I was "arguing" a lot in phases 2 and 3. I just think they weren't used to me questioning them - they're used to it now and actually seek my opinion. I kept going back and reading the directions again and again just to make sure I wasn't doing something wrong.
If this was how good it was getting in just phase 2, and it was still purging time - I couldn't wait until phase 4 when the "real" Alpha training began. I drew up spreadsheets of the days and dates and when each phase was going to start so I could iCal it - I wasn't going to leave it up to my memory, I was going to work the program because it was working for me.
Change can be scary, but the changes that came with Alpha Female felt somehow like I was in a cocoon of safety. I don't know what's in the OE - but Shannon you're brilliant! Did I mention I
Indigo Mind Labs?
At the time, I thought this a negative, but now looking back at it, I see it as the best thing that could possibly have happened because it meant I was standing up for myself. I started to disagree with people - OUT LOUD. Not in a verbally abusive way or anything, my arguments were sound, fact based and logical, I was just able to stand up for myself, for my beliefs and for my knowledge in a way that I never had been able to before - with EVERYONE. Some people thought I was argumentative, and it did seem like I was "arguing" a lot in phases 2 and 3. I just think they weren't used to me questioning them - they're used to it now and actually seek my opinion. I kept going back and reading the directions again and again just to make sure I wasn't doing something wrong.
If this was how good it was getting in just phase 2, and it was still purging time - I couldn't wait until phase 4 when the "real" Alpha training began. I drew up spreadsheets of the days and dates and when each phase was going to start so I could iCal it - I wasn't going to leave it up to my memory, I was going to work the program because it was working for me.
Change can be scary, but the changes that came with Alpha Female felt somehow like I was in a cocoon of safety. I don't know what's in the OE - but Shannon you're brilliant! Did I mention I
Indigo Mind Labs?
