09-19-2014, 08:07 PM
Day 15: Tired of this shit. Anytime I think getting in the mindset for a relationship instead of casual or hook up sex, shit doesn't work out. I don't know what it is...maybe I'm moving to fast...or maybe I'm insecure as much as the other person...and when they're insecure I don't try hard..
This chick that likes my statuses constantly messaged me when I liked one of her baby video's that she shared, not of her baby but a funny baby video. We talked only for a bit, and then stopped. Then yesterday she was like "Let's have cute kids" i joked back..this and that, then we stopped talking to her thx to her not replying. Anyhow she messages me tonight saying "Let's hang out tonight" and I reply "Do you need to be picked up or are you able to come to the west end of the city" she doesn't reply...flakes on me..I HATE THAT SHIT. I WANT TO DELETE HER SO BAD but I also want to give her a chance to make it up to me but my blood is boiling. Cause I don't know if she's playing a game with me or is just insecure cause we never really hung out in person only saw her for a brief second or two. I'm getting all depressed and shit cause I avoid getting feelings or getting into mindsets of getting into a relationship because of STUFF LIKE THIS. My past relationship was the worse thing ever so ever since then I just don't allow myself to completely open up and try harder. I see myself as weak if I be too needy, so I constantly avoid girls for relationship shit yet get them for one night stands or casual. Which those don't last or feel any good after. I miss being in a relationship, it's probably been over 2 years since I've had one. And since 4 years ago since my last break up from the girl I gave my whole time and energy and love to. HATE THIS. Even this one girl I know from school who I'm getting to know is not replying to my last text. We were talking and she is sick and I was like "You could be sipping honey lemon tea watching a show with me but nooo, you're sick" and she didn't reply since 2 hours, which pisses me off. LIKE WE ARE GOING TO SEE EACHOTHER IN SCHOOL ONE DAY. WHY DO YOU GIRLS GET SOO WORRIED ABOUT FLIRTING. Maybe it's just me..I dunno anymore. SUBS HELP MEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
This chick that likes my statuses constantly messaged me when I liked one of her baby video's that she shared, not of her baby but a funny baby video. We talked only for a bit, and then stopped. Then yesterday she was like "Let's have cute kids" i joked back..this and that, then we stopped talking to her thx to her not replying. Anyhow she messages me tonight saying "Let's hang out tonight" and I reply "Do you need to be picked up or are you able to come to the west end of the city" she doesn't reply...flakes on me..I HATE THAT SHIT. I WANT TO DELETE HER SO BAD but I also want to give her a chance to make it up to me but my blood is boiling. Cause I don't know if she's playing a game with me or is just insecure cause we never really hung out in person only saw her for a brief second or two. I'm getting all depressed and shit cause I avoid getting feelings or getting into mindsets of getting into a relationship because of STUFF LIKE THIS. My past relationship was the worse thing ever so ever since then I just don't allow myself to completely open up and try harder. I see myself as weak if I be too needy, so I constantly avoid girls for relationship shit yet get them for one night stands or casual. Which those don't last or feel any good after. I miss being in a relationship, it's probably been over 2 years since I've had one. And since 4 years ago since my last break up from the girl I gave my whole time and energy and love to. HATE THIS. Even this one girl I know from school who I'm getting to know is not replying to my last text. We were talking and she is sick and I was like "You could be sipping honey lemon tea watching a show with me but nooo, you're sick" and she didn't reply since 2 hours, which pisses me off. LIKE WE ARE GOING TO SEE EACHOTHER IN SCHOOL ONE DAY. WHY DO YOU GIRLS GET SOO WORRIED ABOUT FLIRTING. Maybe it's just me..I dunno anymore. SUBS HELP MEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
