09-12-2014, 01:58 PM
Day 12
I'm after first major test of LTU and results are what you might expect after just two weeks of listening - minor. In social situation I behaved pretty much the same as I would without the subs. I was rather defensive, but I didn't close in myself. I was talking and joking but rarely. I left my friends early, but I didn't consider this running away because I felt really tired and I felt there is no point in staying with them in such a situation. Also storm started soon after so there might be some intuition involved as well? <spooky>
Interesting thing that happened today was that I figured out almost automatically (while I was daydreaming in the bus) way to fight with my shyness. The idea is that I'd go to the diner, sit next to someone and simply ask them if they would aid me fight my shyness by casual and inconsequential conversation. I know it might sound stupid, but for me it's really brilliant idea and it might be actually something I might do in next weeks once I move out of my parents' house and I no longer will eat mama's dinners.
Last but not least today I had conversation with my two friends about my free status and that they (as more outgoing in the company) shall help me improve my love life. To make story short under some jokes and mean comments one of them (one that knows me very well) was thinking: "Well, he's a nice guy, why doesn't he have a girlfriend?" It was quite heartwarming as I think it was the first time I've heard this sort of message from someone younger than 40 years
. Again, small thing but really got my spirit up. More conversations like that, please
I'm after first major test of LTU and results are what you might expect after just two weeks of listening - minor. In social situation I behaved pretty much the same as I would without the subs. I was rather defensive, but I didn't close in myself. I was talking and joking but rarely. I left my friends early, but I didn't consider this running away because I felt really tired and I felt there is no point in staying with them in such a situation. Also storm started soon after so there might be some intuition involved as well? <spooky>
Interesting thing that happened today was that I figured out almost automatically (while I was daydreaming in the bus) way to fight with my shyness. The idea is that I'd go to the diner, sit next to someone and simply ask them if they would aid me fight my shyness by casual and inconsequential conversation. I know it might sound stupid, but for me it's really brilliant idea and it might be actually something I might do in next weeks once I move out of my parents' house and I no longer will eat mama's dinners.
Last but not least today I had conversation with my two friends about my free status and that they (as more outgoing in the company) shall help me improve my love life. To make story short under some jokes and mean comments one of them (one that knows me very well) was thinking: "Well, he's a nice guy, why doesn't he have a girlfriend?" It was quite heartwarming as I think it was the first time I've heard this sort of message from someone younger than 40 years
. Again, small thing but really got my spirit up. More conversations like that, please
