09-07-2014, 03:00 PM
Day 7
It's hard to believe I've been listening to LTU for a week now. I was listening to it 16-20 hours a day as I was trying to maximize my exposure. To summarize this week shortly nothing major happened, but there were lots of small things and gradual changes that keep me optimistic for the weeks to come. There were setbacks and I still feel some resistance, but it's not gonna stop me now!
This day was not eventful except for two things really. First one was dream I had, almost connected to my anxiety attack yesterday. It made me much calmer and it was almost like my subconscious was trying to prove that my issue is not as serious as I think and I can deal with it given time and high self esteem. Subs also help a lot and I've noticed that instead of tiring me they calm me down and make me more confident.
Second thing was that now I have strong resolve to go to Amazon once I collect enough money and end my higher education with Masters degree. I've always wanted to do this and I've even completed Spanish A2 for that purpose, but I've never really thought I have the guts to go for such an unusual travel. This time however I feel really confident that if only circumstances will allow it I'll seize the chance. I don't know if this commitment will survive, but even if I'll dismiss it soon it proved to me I'm starting to look at myself as someone who can pool this out.
It's hard to believe I've been listening to LTU for a week now. I was listening to it 16-20 hours a day as I was trying to maximize my exposure. To summarize this week shortly nothing major happened, but there were lots of small things and gradual changes that keep me optimistic for the weeks to come. There were setbacks and I still feel some resistance, but it's not gonna stop me now!
This day was not eventful except for two things really. First one was dream I had, almost connected to my anxiety attack yesterday. It made me much calmer and it was almost like my subconscious was trying to prove that my issue is not as serious as I think and I can deal with it given time and high self esteem. Subs also help a lot and I've noticed that instead of tiring me they calm me down and make me more confident.
Second thing was that now I have strong resolve to go to Amazon once I collect enough money and end my higher education with Masters degree. I've always wanted to do this and I've even completed Spanish A2 for that purpose, but I've never really thought I have the guts to go for such an unusual travel. This time however I feel really confident that if only circumstances will allow it I'll seize the chance. I don't know if this commitment will survive, but even if I'll dismiss it soon it proved to me I'm starting to look at myself as someone who can pool this out.
