08-27-2014, 10:14 AM
Last night of stage 3.... The tiredness and feeling low have cleared up completely now. I wouldn't exactly say that I feel more confident from this stage, I do how ever, feel a HELL of a lot more mature. I've come to the realization of how insecure most people actually are. For example, I like drum n bass music and have been big into the raving scene for a while now. I've always (in someway) looked up to a lot of the, DJ's and MC's, but now (all of a sudden) I don't what so ever. I actually listen to some of the crap the MC's come out with and cringe at it. All this BS about "gun's, knifes, beating people up, proving yourself, ect...") it's all complete bollocks. I never really thought about it before but I see it as REALLY childish now. I'm actually even starting to go off the music a bit because of it (I never thought I'd see myself saying that as well). I'm also looking at rap or any other music considered to be "egocentric" in the same light... All this BS about being "cool" lmao, it really is pathetic...
Of course this is just one example, the same mentality has manifested throughout my entire mindset and I'm looking at people in a completely different light compared to how I used to.
O, and I'm starting to get some attention of the ladies haha, when I was out at the weekend I got plenty of stares and flirty looks. I was too engrossed in the moment to really pay them much attention though (I get like this with them sometimes). I'm imagining my attraction to shoot straight up over the next three stages if they have a run in to SM3 built in... We shall see..... :angel:
Roll on stage 4 !!
Of course this is just one example, the same mentality has manifested throughout my entire mindset and I'm looking at people in a completely different light compared to how I used to.
O, and I'm starting to get some attention of the ladies haha, when I was out at the weekend I got plenty of stares and flirty looks. I was too engrossed in the moment to really pay them much attention though (I get like this with them sometimes). I'm imagining my attraction to shoot straight up over the next three stages if they have a run in to SM3 built in... We shall see..... :angel:
Roll on stage 4 !!
