26/8/14
OK little bit of an update. For one thing I actually said hi to a guy in the street today, a cute guy but it was weird cos he walked past and we exchanged eye contact. Then I said hi. He looked really startled and I said "Hi" again but he didn't respond just stared briefly which is a shame but it's pretty awesome that I did that, you know cos although I can be very confident in some situations, like out at events, I had got to the point of trying to say hi to a cute guy in the street and I would practically whisper it, I could NOT get the words out. This was quite confident and friendly. I also asked my friend to an event i went to but that KIND of doesn't count cos I don't fancy him like that. But still.
Also I had a couple of things happen when I went out on Sunday night.
I was standing up in the train and this really cute guy, with his friends, offered me his seat and the other guys he was with were saying to him "Player! Player!" like he'd done it to flirt!
I did a couple of affirmations too about cute guys liking me but only once, you know?
And on the way home, I got on the train and this guy had just got off. He was drunk yes and with his sober friend. But he was cute. He looked at me as I got on the train and said "Wow, you're amazing! You're so lovely. You're smile. I don't know what it is but there's just something about you. If I woke up to you every day, I'd feel complete." Like he found me attractive but he could also see my inner and outer beauty. Yes, he was drunk I know and I said "I wonder if you'd think that if you were sober."
But the friend who WAS sober said to him "Yes, OK, OK, you like each other now just exchange numbers already cos we need to go!"
I gave him a kiss but just on the cheek. (he had gorgeous skin too!) and he really wanted to give me his number and so I let him. I don't know, I thought about sending a text just to say thank you for saying the lovely things, even if you WERE drunk. With a photo of me so he knows who I am! But I dunno! Anyway, that's my little update. Wait! I didn't say about my date.
I had a date on Friday night that went well and I felt quite confident which felt lovely. Not enough sparks and attraction on my end not sure about for him, although it was funny in a way (and nice!) cos we were talking and then he suddenly kissed me, like kissed me proper, and i responded ;-) and then he apologized but he did it two other times that evening as well! Nice chat and some laughs and it's a lovely thing to do on Friday night. I don't know if this is connected but also, the guy who I have this text relationship with who I am meant to meet on Thursday, said something that got me MAD. We cleared the air and ended up having a got texting chat and laugh and even more openness. But the thing IS when this thing happened before - it's not even a bad thing - I never said anything this time I mentioned I was mad so it's like I was a bit more assertive, you know? Which might also be connected.
I still want to be lots more confident when I really like a guy a lot, there's two guys that so far i really do and I still find it hard not to put them on a pedestal. Neither are guys that nothing has happened with and my focus with these subs is new guys anyway, but I'm still hoping to keep building up my confidence. It will come and I have some other subs from here that I think will help with repetition.
Anyway, still some cool things there!
And that's my update!
OK little bit of an update. For one thing I actually said hi to a guy in the street today, a cute guy but it was weird cos he walked past and we exchanged eye contact. Then I said hi. He looked really startled and I said "Hi" again but he didn't respond just stared briefly which is a shame but it's pretty awesome that I did that, you know cos although I can be very confident in some situations, like out at events, I had got to the point of trying to say hi to a cute guy in the street and I would practically whisper it, I could NOT get the words out. This was quite confident and friendly. I also asked my friend to an event i went to but that KIND of doesn't count cos I don't fancy him like that. But still.
Also I had a couple of things happen when I went out on Sunday night.
I was standing up in the train and this really cute guy, with his friends, offered me his seat and the other guys he was with were saying to him "Player! Player!" like he'd done it to flirt!
I did a couple of affirmations too about cute guys liking me but only once, you know?
And on the way home, I got on the train and this guy had just got off. He was drunk yes and with his sober friend. But he was cute. He looked at me as I got on the train and said "Wow, you're amazing! You're so lovely. You're smile. I don't know what it is but there's just something about you. If I woke up to you every day, I'd feel complete." Like he found me attractive but he could also see my inner and outer beauty. Yes, he was drunk I know and I said "I wonder if you'd think that if you were sober."
But the friend who WAS sober said to him "Yes, OK, OK, you like each other now just exchange numbers already cos we need to go!"
I gave him a kiss but just on the cheek. (he had gorgeous skin too!) and he really wanted to give me his number and so I let him. I don't know, I thought about sending a text just to say thank you for saying the lovely things, even if you WERE drunk. With a photo of me so he knows who I am! But I dunno! Anyway, that's my little update. Wait! I didn't say about my date.
I had a date on Friday night that went well and I felt quite confident which felt lovely. Not enough sparks and attraction on my end not sure about for him, although it was funny in a way (and nice!) cos we were talking and then he suddenly kissed me, like kissed me proper, and i responded ;-) and then he apologized but he did it two other times that evening as well! Nice chat and some laughs and it's a lovely thing to do on Friday night. I don't know if this is connected but also, the guy who I have this text relationship with who I am meant to meet on Thursday, said something that got me MAD. We cleared the air and ended up having a got texting chat and laugh and even more openness. But the thing IS when this thing happened before - it's not even a bad thing - I never said anything this time I mentioned I was mad so it's like I was a bit more assertive, you know? Which might also be connected.
I still want to be lots more confident when I really like a guy a lot, there's two guys that so far i really do and I still find it hard not to put them on a pedestal. Neither are guys that nothing has happened with and my focus with these subs is new guys anyway, but I'm still hoping to keep building up my confidence. It will come and I have some other subs from here that I think will help with repetition.
Anyway, still some cool things there!
And that's my update!
