08-18-2014, 10:46 AM
Went to the doctor today. She wants to keep me on anti-depressants for another 2 months then go from there. Right now I'm on 25mg of sertraline, it's a really small dose. Truthfully I jumped the gun with the poison in my body statement in my last post. Side effects do suck and having a foreign substance in my body is less than comforting. But I can't deny that it's helped me immensely. I think it even helped me put up less resistance when I was running the emotional pain relief and healing sub.
It's tough knowing what to believe. I don't doubt for a second that antidepressants are pushed on people and big pharma makes a profit. But at the same time I've heard stories of people's lives being saved and improved from these things.
I've done a lot of work on myself over the years and I've never been able to really get to where I want to be. Taking these antidepressants has opened my eyes to a different world almost.
Some people say that antidepressants numb you. But that hasn't been my experience. Prior to taking them my emotions were quite limited, mostly getting snuffed out by the depression. Now I experience more depth and variety instead of feeling incredibly flat. If anything I have more insight into my emotions and thoughts now then I did before because depression was distorting everything.
I still don't know what I'm planning to do. But I'm hoping that while I'm taking these antidepressants all the restructuring of my thoughts and beliefs stick and I can get off of them. I find it hard to believe that I have a biological defect in my brain that causes depression out of nowhere. Then again the brain is an organ just like any other part of the body and not immune to its own issues.
It's tough knowing what to believe. I don't doubt for a second that antidepressants are pushed on people and big pharma makes a profit. But at the same time I've heard stories of people's lives being saved and improved from these things.
I've done a lot of work on myself over the years and I've never been able to really get to where I want to be. Taking these antidepressants has opened my eyes to a different world almost.
Some people say that antidepressants numb you. But that hasn't been my experience. Prior to taking them my emotions were quite limited, mostly getting snuffed out by the depression. Now I experience more depth and variety instead of feeling incredibly flat. If anything I have more insight into my emotions and thoughts now then I did before because depression was distorting everything.
I still don't know what I'm planning to do. But I'm hoping that while I'm taking these antidepressants all the restructuring of my thoughts and beliefs stick and I can get off of them. I find it hard to believe that I have a biological defect in my brain that causes depression out of nowhere. Then again the brain is an organ just like any other part of the body and not immune to its own issues.
