08-14-2014, 04:03 PM
Day 18
Another Good Day, of this life, Starring: Dpenguin
Today i waked up, like nothing although a little tad negative i have found my problem, so after the bathroom break i was positive again, i think my mind or something begin to sabotage myself in efforts to me going to the bathroom, even when i don'0t know because i feel bad, an laaaaater i feel need to go to the bathroom, but i think is something i need to live with it, till my doctor appointment.
Now about the file, i feel awesome, soo secure, soo confident, even walking, and talking /i have beginned to talk a little more slowly than before, although people don't hear my voice when i talk) I have this problem with my voice volume i have problems regulating it, because it's hard to find a medium volume that isn't or to wuiet, or to loud to people. My voice is soo deep. (although i think is more about the fact that i barely talk, soo meh)
Today came to my home one of my aunts, vissiting, she was treating me better, and i aproached here like nothing and more happy than ever, although later she got shy around me (before it wasn't that bad, although i think she was feeling bad), she was treating me better than before, but she still didn't know how exactly react around me, extrangely enough when i called her or talked to her about something she got out of this state, but then bam again in it.
I think although i'm winning confidence, i'm losing my patience around people critics and bullshit, yesterday my sister did a little critic about a joke i did about me beign fitness, and then i got pissed out, i didn't teel her anything but i feel angry, after that i think it was stupid, but still before i would not care. Then lated this day came my mom, she was talking to my aunt, about my cousin learning french, and i asked her where i could go to learn french, then my mother told that i have to learn english(for those who don't know my main language is Spanish), with the most jerky stare, posture, and voice ever, i could have ignored her, like i do forever and i think i was a bit irrespective, because i respond to her around my aunt, but it got me soo pissed that with the same posture, same voice, and same stare i told her ¨I know english¨, after that she was shocked and went to eat. I still feel a little bad around her, and was angry after that, but then i remember it was my mother so it wasn't important.
So, i told guys how i feel about my self looking in the mirror right?, well today i looked again to my mirror and i was looking more sexier, more confident, more secure, and more goal seeking. I was and still feel happy around my life, and was thinking constantly around how people will be better if they stop thinking so much stupid things and went to think more happy around their lifes.
PD: bY THE WAY before i go, i have to ask between 1 to 10 how much will you put in my english post overall, and how much you will put in THIS POST, in special. Please tell me
Another Good Day, of this life, Starring: Dpenguin
Today i waked up, like nothing although a little tad negative i have found my problem, so after the bathroom break i was positive again, i think my mind or something begin to sabotage myself in efforts to me going to the bathroom, even when i don'0t know because i feel bad, an laaaaater i feel need to go to the bathroom, but i think is something i need to live with it, till my doctor appointment.
Now about the file, i feel awesome, soo secure, soo confident, even walking, and talking /i have beginned to talk a little more slowly than before, although people don't hear my voice when i talk) I have this problem with my voice volume i have problems regulating it, because it's hard to find a medium volume that isn't or to wuiet, or to loud to people. My voice is soo deep. (although i think is more about the fact that i barely talk, soo meh)
Today came to my home one of my aunts, vissiting, she was treating me better, and i aproached here like nothing and more happy than ever, although later she got shy around me (before it wasn't that bad, although i think she was feeling bad), she was treating me better than before, but she still didn't know how exactly react around me, extrangely enough when i called her or talked to her about something she got out of this state, but then bam again in it.
I think although i'm winning confidence, i'm losing my patience around people critics and bullshit, yesterday my sister did a little critic about a joke i did about me beign fitness, and then i got pissed out, i didn't teel her anything but i feel angry, after that i think it was stupid, but still before i would not care. Then lated this day came my mom, she was talking to my aunt, about my cousin learning french, and i asked her where i could go to learn french, then my mother told that i have to learn english(for those who don't know my main language is Spanish), with the most jerky stare, posture, and voice ever, i could have ignored her, like i do forever and i think i was a bit irrespective, because i respond to her around my aunt, but it got me soo pissed that with the same posture, same voice, and same stare i told her ¨I know english¨, after that she was shocked and went to eat. I still feel a little bad around her, and was angry after that, but then i remember it was my mother so it wasn't important.
So, i told guys how i feel about my self looking in the mirror right?, well today i looked again to my mirror and i was looking more sexier, more confident, more secure, and more goal seeking. I was and still feel happy around my life, and was thinking constantly around how people will be better if they stop thinking so much stupid things and went to think more happy around their lifes.
PD: bY THE WAY before i go, i have to ask between 1 to 10 how much will you put in my english post overall, and how much you will put in THIS POST, in special. Please tell me
