07-23-2014, 06:33 AM
(This post was last modified: 07-23-2014, 06:36 AM by rogueathlete79.)
24 days in. This last week has been VERY up and down. The lows feel similar to how I felt on AM5 stage 2. It's seriously been pretty roller-coastery lately. I remember 2 nights ago just laying in my bed doubting the fuck out of myself and everything in my life. It was to the point that I made an audio recording on my phone of myself telling myself that I know I can be successful and positive things like that and listened to it on repeat like 5 times. I have no idea what made me think to do that but it definitely made me feel alot better. As of yesterday and today though I feel really good. The subliminal feels alot more subtle at this point. Yesterday I went to the beach for the day with my friend who is a very cute girl. She isn't quite my type I don't think, but we get along well. Even though I'm very attracted to here I didn't make any moves because she was texting a guy that she seems pretty involved with like the whole day. I spent the day on the beach, the boardwalk and the pool with this girl and her older sister and fiance that I met that day. I really feel like I can get along with anyone or hang out with any girl and get them to like me. I feel like I can talk to any woman and no one is out of my league. I feel like I can thrive in any social setting. I feel so calm and flexible and outgoing at the same time. Another cool thing: I felt like yesterday I really controlled the outcome of the day. I wanted to walk the boardwalk so we did that. Everywhere I wanted to explore and check out my friend wanted to too. I wanted to go to the pool so I said it and we all went. I genuinely feel as though I'm perfect boyfriend material or I'm what every girl wants. This might sound conceited but in all honesty I feel like I have everything going for me. At times before this subliminal I've had this thought intellectually but I never really had the sustained feeling. I truly feel that I'm what most girls are looking for. When I ask women what their type of guy is or what they look for in a guy I always have all the qualities they mention. This fits right in with this subliminals goals of self esteem self worth self validation and everything like that. And what is cool is that I'm not needing or looking for a girlfriend. I'm fine with myself and with where I'm at and just doing me and building my businesses. I don't feel fearful of a fuckin thing either. Yesterday I could have approached soo many women if I wasn't with my friend. I would see a beautiful girl and think of exactly what I would want to say to her if I were to approach her. Zero anxiety. Just free flowing care-free fun feelz. I just feel powerful and very calm. I feel grounded and a center of positivity and peace.
I know this is getting long so just a few more things..
I feel so calm that sometimes that I feel I am able to detach from my goals. It feels like I feel so peaceful and accepting in the moment that I give up associating my goals with happiness. I know I can be happy regardless and I know I will achieve my goals eventually anyway.
I'm taking alot more responsibility. I feel as though the financial well being of my entire family is my responsibility and rests in my hands alone. My dad is out of work and my mother won't be able to continue her job much longer at her age. My younger sister is going to graduate college in a few years with debt up to her fucking eyeballs. My brother is a hardworker in both the businesses that we are involved in together but I feel a leadership role being the older brother. I feel I know my purpose and I accept my responsibility.
I think I've had some ego balancing.. I always project a vision of myself with big ass fuckin gold chains and a gold rolex and fancy shit when I become wealthy enough for my assets to comfortably buy me these things. However I realized if I dress like this or act like this I can't fit in with many social settings with out making people feel awkward. I'm still going to get what I want but I may tone it down alot at times. It feels a little awkward when people who work a regular labor job ask me what I do for a living and I explain the multiple business ventures that I have going on. I'm willing to be very wealthy and accept how people will treat me differently because of it but I don't want to be cocky or show offey about it anymore.
I still want to see more change in the way of the winners mindset and attitude component as well as the success programming and overcoming procrastinations components of this subliminal.
I don't recall where I heard about this (somewhere online very recently) but I was lead to order a book called "The Winner Effect: The Neuroscience of Success and Failure." That's definitely a synchronicity (which is really how subliminals effect your outside world). So that should be interesting. Thanks everyone stay tuned more updates to come.
I know this is getting long so just a few more things..
I feel so calm that sometimes that I feel I am able to detach from my goals. It feels like I feel so peaceful and accepting in the moment that I give up associating my goals with happiness. I know I can be happy regardless and I know I will achieve my goals eventually anyway.
I'm taking alot more responsibility. I feel as though the financial well being of my entire family is my responsibility and rests in my hands alone. My dad is out of work and my mother won't be able to continue her job much longer at her age. My younger sister is going to graduate college in a few years with debt up to her fucking eyeballs. My brother is a hardworker in both the businesses that we are involved in together but I feel a leadership role being the older brother. I feel I know my purpose and I accept my responsibility.
I think I've had some ego balancing.. I always project a vision of myself with big ass fuckin gold chains and a gold rolex and fancy shit when I become wealthy enough for my assets to comfortably buy me these things. However I realized if I dress like this or act like this I can't fit in with many social settings with out making people feel awkward. I'm still going to get what I want but I may tone it down alot at times. It feels a little awkward when people who work a regular labor job ask me what I do for a living and I explain the multiple business ventures that I have going on. I'm willing to be very wealthy and accept how people will treat me differently because of it but I don't want to be cocky or show offey about it anymore.
I still want to see more change in the way of the winners mindset and attitude component as well as the success programming and overcoming procrastinations components of this subliminal.
I don't recall where I heard about this (somewhere online very recently) but I was lead to order a book called "The Winner Effect: The Neuroscience of Success and Failure." That's definitely a synchronicity (which is really how subliminals effect your outside world). So that should be interesting. Thanks everyone stay tuned more updates to come.
