07-16-2014, 11:38 AM
(This post was last modified: 07-16-2014, 11:43 AM by RainbowAbyss.)
Wooo...
Going way to long on Alpha these stages
but I've been traveling and there are weeks
I just can't listen so it's taking a little longer.
I'm pretty much done with stage 4.
This was the toughest stage by far...been re-evaluating my whole life.
There have been aspects of more hardcore unconscious emotions and conditioning that are being de-rooted by Alpha it seems. Things like Deep 'stuck-ness' in my life, and 'betrayal' of my father, he bounced when I was 18 and have only seen him once since (of his choice), that I am seeing and experiencing fully but with strong observing ego. So the places where this things ran me are no longer running me. There has been some crazy anxiety in this stage but people have been commented on how clear and calm I seem, even when experiencing that.
My appreciation, respect and feelings of attraction towards woman in general have grown but my need and interest in pursuing woman is straight zero son. (Although scores SM3 journal is very inspirational in that front).
stage 4 changes in a nutshell...
more motivated
less lazy
facing discomfort head on
increased standards in the woman I'm even willing to entertain-in the physical attraction dept. as well as whole human being sense
stronger focus
looking out for my life first but focused on bringing out the value in others
comfort ignoring people, or shit that irks me with no qualms.
My confidence is situations where I have to act decisively, warrior it up (have a plan, know what to do, act on it), get something down that's 'scary' etc. is WAY up...as well
as well as quite a bit up in situations that require me to think and act on my feet.
My body language is changing again which is kind of surprising to notice yet still feel so natural. I'm just smoother and more comfortable..and most of the time feel way sexier then I have been earlier this year.
I've cut out almost all my friends in my life...I'm still social at times but don't really confide in any one
whose not a professional at whatever I'm confiding in them in.
Also just downloaded EPHRA--(THANKS SHANNON FOR THE FREE RESOURCE!!), probably shouldn't run it with Alpha 5...but curious to try it.
I am so impressed with the direction this site and forum are taking, its amazing how powerful some of these resources are getting
Going way to long on Alpha these stages
but I've been traveling and there are weeks
I just can't listen so it's taking a little longer.
I'm pretty much done with stage 4.
This was the toughest stage by far...been re-evaluating my whole life.
There have been aspects of more hardcore unconscious emotions and conditioning that are being de-rooted by Alpha it seems. Things like Deep 'stuck-ness' in my life, and 'betrayal' of my father, he bounced when I was 18 and have only seen him once since (of his choice), that I am seeing and experiencing fully but with strong observing ego. So the places where this things ran me are no longer running me. There has been some crazy anxiety in this stage but people have been commented on how clear and calm I seem, even when experiencing that.
My appreciation, respect and feelings of attraction towards woman in general have grown but my need and interest in pursuing woman is straight zero son. (Although scores SM3 journal is very inspirational in that front).
stage 4 changes in a nutshell...
more motivated
less lazy
facing discomfort head on
increased standards in the woman I'm even willing to entertain-in the physical attraction dept. as well as whole human being sense
stronger focus
looking out for my life first but focused on bringing out the value in others
comfort ignoring people, or shit that irks me with no qualms.
My confidence is situations where I have to act decisively, warrior it up (have a plan, know what to do, act on it), get something down that's 'scary' etc. is WAY up...as well
as well as quite a bit up in situations that require me to think and act on my feet.
My body language is changing again which is kind of surprising to notice yet still feel so natural. I'm just smoother and more comfortable..and most of the time feel way sexier then I have been earlier this year.
I've cut out almost all my friends in my life...I'm still social at times but don't really confide in any one
whose not a professional at whatever I'm confiding in them in.
Also just downloaded EPHRA--(THANKS SHANNON FOR THE FREE RESOURCE!!), probably shouldn't run it with Alpha 5...but curious to try it.
I am so impressed with the direction this site and forum are taking, its amazing how powerful some of these resources are getting
1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
