11-11-2010, 11:26 PM
Rainbow alpha report
the end of stage one was brutal
I was lodged up with my twin and mom
in a house in the middle of nowhere
felt my shadow unearthed and was so driven
yet couldn't do a darn thing about anything and become very frustrated and
depressed.
Stage two has been pure bliss so far.
I have been on in it for only three days but wow!
The biggest think about this stage and alpha so far is a sense of bigger perspective, I am becoming more and more in the moment and feeling it, yet more and more able to logically just view it and make the right moves.
So far depression has been wiped out (The last three days of stage one really worked that out of me it feels like). I am totally compelled to do what I love more and more and am doing it.
I feel very motivated and extremely confident, outcome detached but not just cause I don't give a shit about anything, I feel more humble in a way as well. I get moments of hang ups and and still have a no bs policy growing but it seems to be MUCH more tempered than stage one, where I almost couldn't help being deliberately confrontational. I feel like I didn't know what confidence really was until I started Alpha stage one, and now on stage 2 I'm like 'that was nothing compared to this', I can only imagine whats coming. I think stage two is really just getting me to do what I want and feel great about doing which is creating an upward spiral.I am basically really taking care of myself,
and also have a new sense of caring more about what I am actually doing. Woman are starting to chase me but in a very natural way, and I am more comfortable going after what I want. By the end of stage one I could have cared less about women, now I am interested again, slightly lol, but more as a take it as it happens where as in stage one I wanted to have nothing to do with it. The strangest think about this stage for me so far is that since I started it I have been crying a ton, its like a mixture of elation and grief, I am so happy and grateful and at the same time alot of crap is coming out.
Anyway I didn't think this was worth mentioningbefore but I am listening to the ultrasonic with headphones and have been for the past 5 weeks maybe more including my stint with WM, I enjoy it more and find it works better for me. I heard it might be a no no but it seems to be doing me fine.
the end of stage one was brutal
I was lodged up with my twin and mom
in a house in the middle of nowhere
felt my shadow unearthed and was so driven
yet couldn't do a darn thing about anything and become very frustrated and
depressed.
Stage two has been pure bliss so far.
I have been on in it for only three days but wow!
The biggest think about this stage and alpha so far is a sense of bigger perspective, I am becoming more and more in the moment and feeling it, yet more and more able to logically just view it and make the right moves.
So far depression has been wiped out (The last three days of stage one really worked that out of me it feels like). I am totally compelled to do what I love more and more and am doing it.
I feel very motivated and extremely confident, outcome detached but not just cause I don't give a shit about anything, I feel more humble in a way as well. I get moments of hang ups and and still have a no bs policy growing but it seems to be MUCH more tempered than stage one, where I almost couldn't help being deliberately confrontational. I feel like I didn't know what confidence really was until I started Alpha stage one, and now on stage 2 I'm like 'that was nothing compared to this', I can only imagine whats coming. I think stage two is really just getting me to do what I want and feel great about doing which is creating an upward spiral.I am basically really taking care of myself,
and also have a new sense of caring more about what I am actually doing. Woman are starting to chase me but in a very natural way, and I am more comfortable going after what I want. By the end of stage one I could have cared less about women, now I am interested again, slightly lol, but more as a take it as it happens where as in stage one I wanted to have nothing to do with it. The strangest think about this stage for me so far is that since I started it I have been crying a ton, its like a mixture of elation and grief, I am so happy and grateful and at the same time alot of crap is coming out.
Anyway I didn't think this was worth mentioningbefore but I am listening to the ultrasonic with headphones and have been for the past 5 weeks maybe more including my stint with WM, I enjoy it more and find it works better for me. I heard it might be a no no but it seems to be doing me fine.
1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
