06-04-2014, 09:36 AM
I'm graduating from High School today 
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I noticed today that I formed this belief that true love only comes from being weak. I'm very scared of people not truly loving me, and only loving me when I'm doing good. Sometimes I say absolutely disgusting things or act in a way that puts people off to see if they'll stick around and bear it. I formed a belief that it's the only way I'll really know if these people care for me.
It's rather feminine. It's pretty interesting that I put out my own shit tests, I'm not sure if it's a symptom of being raised by a woman or just a symptom of being a "Nice Guy."
I'm going to begin tapping on it and see if I can get rid of it. I haven't been experiencing any emotions when I'm tapping and I'm worried it's not working. I get relief, but I'm never sure if the belief is truly gone.
.I noticed today that I formed this belief that true love only comes from being weak. I'm very scared of people not truly loving me, and only loving me when I'm doing good. Sometimes I say absolutely disgusting things or act in a way that puts people off to see if they'll stick around and bear it. I formed a belief that it's the only way I'll really know if these people care for me.
It's rather feminine. It's pretty interesting that I put out my own shit tests, I'm not sure if it's a symptom of being raised by a woman or just a symptom of being a "Nice Guy."
I'm going to begin tapping on it and see if I can get rid of it. I haven't been experiencing any emotions when I'm tapping and I'm worried it's not working. I get relief, but I'm never sure if the belief is truly gone.
