Roy's BAMM 2.0 Journal

[Andrew]

really hard on me sometimes.Not really sure if it's BAMM or my current circumstances.Had some nice days than got a surge of negativity about life today.Big one.Negativity and depression about my life today.It was f*****g hard.Hopelessness about my life and my situation in them,emotionally
vulnurable and very lonley.
Had a few breaking down moments today,got better and working toward another goal.

I get these a lot. Still. But only when I am fighting myself. I've noticed for me it's a personal cleansing process. Getting to where I need to be almost always requires I do something that may mean I make a major mistake.

I recently talked to some of my family, expressing that I had some doubts of the decisions I'm about to make. Why? Because I've made so many bad decisions in my life. They pointed out some even bigger mistakes that I had not made and helped me put it in perspective. I am still worried I am on the verge of making a major mistake, maybe several. But would I take back my mistakes of the past if I could? No.

I don't repeat them. I've learned from them. I would never go back and undo all my mistakes, if it meant being as naive as I was before each one. BAMM I've discovered for me personally, is not a progress meter but first becoming the man necessary to become permanently wealthy and happy in all areas of life. To me that's more than a bank account number will ever be and more "wealthy" than a vast majority of rich people.