DMSI 3.2 Magnus

[Magnus]

So I have finally learnt the power behind embracing my emotions. The last few days I have had a lot coming up, a lot of sadness, a lot of fear and a lot of feelings of loneliness. In the past this has caused me anxiety, I've run and I've hid from it through my anxiety. For the last few days I have been stepping right into it, turning around and facing it and what I've found is not weakness but a great feeling of power. It's not the sort of power where I can take over the world but a inner power where I feel OK within myself even though I'm feeling emotions which would be considered to most weak. At this point in time I don't feel like a victim to my emotions, I don't feel weak for having them.

This has been showing through out in the world as well not just within myself. Last night I had a friend who came to me with a tough situation he's been facing and I had faced a similar situation in the past. After talking for a while we were both crying about it and I felt perfectly OK with that, in fact I felt stronger within myself because of it. After our talk he said to me "You are like an older brother to me, I've never had anyone who's been able to stand up strong and help me through my shit". This is just one example of many and its not just friends that have changed around me. Very attractive girls have been smiling at me a lot as well everywhere I go and I've found myself flirting a lot with girls. It's a very different sort of flirting as well, they seem to turn into giggling little girls when flirting a lot like they do when they are teenagers, I don't know if it's my openness and the strength in my own vulnerability or what but girls in general seem a lot more open with me.

Anyway that is all for now