06-01-2014, 11:35 AM
Stage 5, Day 23
Basically stopped keeping in contact with the successful lawyer girl. She was really indecisive and it bothered me. She was saying a while before this that I give off negative energy. I think that I tear a woman down, but don't bring her back up again. I think that this is my problem with women, but I'm going to have to experiment for balance.
Making a decision to get another job and putting my heart into it has really cause my job search to bear fruit. Two job interviews in 4 days. I am waiting on a job offer right now. I know that I will get it.
Went through a bad patch a day or two ago. Ate a 300g bag of chips in 20min. A little bit of garbage self talk, but only if I let it gain momentum. It's easy to combat my negative self talk now. It doesn't have the staying power it used to. The girls at work are really warming uo to me now. A lot of them flirt relentlessly with me. I think they want a reaction, but I keep snubbing them in groups and flirting back one on one.
Went for wings with one of my buddys last week and he seemed a little unnerved so I said is my calmness freaking you out? He said "yeah, I'm not sure if your going to snap and kill anyone, just kidding" (I used to get furious I'd snap yell a bit and then cold fury and the madder I got the calmer I got, freaked people out) I said nah, dude, just happy with life and where I'm going. Love seeing that "James Bond effect" in action. In all this it is a little difficult to temper everything with humility and to restrain myself from just hammering people with Alpha. Next stage maybe. As always, starting to get excited about the next step. Nine Days....
Basically stopped keeping in contact with the successful lawyer girl. She was really indecisive and it bothered me. She was saying a while before this that I give off negative energy. I think that I tear a woman down, but don't bring her back up again. I think that this is my problem with women, but I'm going to have to experiment for balance.
Making a decision to get another job and putting my heart into it has really cause my job search to bear fruit. Two job interviews in 4 days. I am waiting on a job offer right now. I know that I will get it.
Went through a bad patch a day or two ago. Ate a 300g bag of chips in 20min. A little bit of garbage self talk, but only if I let it gain momentum. It's easy to combat my negative self talk now. It doesn't have the staying power it used to. The girls at work are really warming uo to me now. A lot of them flirt relentlessly with me. I think they want a reaction, but I keep snubbing them in groups and flirting back one on one.
Went for wings with one of my buddys last week and he seemed a little unnerved so I said is my calmness freaking you out? He said "yeah, I'm not sure if your going to snap and kill anyone, just kidding" (I used to get furious I'd snap yell a bit and then cold fury and the madder I got the calmer I got, freaked people out) I said nah, dude, just happy with life and where I'm going. Love seeing that "James Bond effect" in action. In all this it is a little difficult to temper everything with humility and to restrain myself from just hammering people with Alpha. Next stage maybe. As always, starting to get excited about the next step. Nine Days....
