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Ike's AM 5.0 Journey - brightike - 03-11-2014
Ok, this will be a bit to bring everyone up to speed.
Nov 2012 - Break up with an incredible, intellegent Korean girl who I was engaged to because I'm not enough of a man to hold my relationship together. (Not comfortable in my own skin, jealous, no backbone, etc. ) oh yeah and just just coming out of being a pathological liar, cheater, all around douchebag of year. Didn't think that she was the one for me. Couldn't have guy friends because I "claimed' to be territorial, but just didn't know how to talk to guys.
March 2013 - Become Christian and a self proclaimed fixer of relationships (couldn't hold my own together, made me qualified to teach)
April 2013 - Met another girl, becomes serious quickly. 180 physically from my previous relationships. Not very much physical contact. Was and am still ok with this in this relationship.
Aug 2013 - Realized that she wasn't the right one for me. (Notice the pattern..11 years long) break up... Stream of girls. No one super special. Hotter than I ever have in the past, but not special to me.
Nov 2013 - Continue a past behaviour of hunting other peoples wives and break a marriage up. Destroys a lot of my self confidence, esteem, worth. Back to faith - start building myself back up on age old principles and morals (don't want to discuss it) work at it daily for 60 days straight, but still don't feel the same. Get skidded from old job, completely finalizes self esteem destruction. Oh and totalled my car.
Decemberish - Buy wing girl method because I don't want to mess up again. Remember torrents. Find a PUA tracker. Find AM 5.0 on Dec 28, 2013. Start as soon as I download. For some reason end up on sub-shop.com a weekish later. Buy little subs, but can't use them because I'm on AM5.0. Discover AM 6.0 and realize I can't use it cuz of AM5.0.
Jan 2014 - Stage one is intense. Crazy dreams, lot's of dreaming about sex. Head is warmer than usual. Brain must be working hard. Meet hot girl at coffee shop. I blow it the first time and continue to come every few days or so to touch base. Sit in her section. Finally, say,(Jan 27ish) "I don't want to know you for this, as I wave up and down her body. I think you're interesting and I want to know you. Not this lie that you show other people." She weighs it, gives me her number. Get together, turns out to be a heavy drinking and driving kinda girl (hate that). Swear her off. Nightmares of failing at life. Creditors calling. House almost goes into foreclosure. Save it before it's too late. Too pussy to go back to work.
Feb 2014 - stage 2 (jan still) - Fix some of the monetary bleeding. AM 5.0 is giving me a super boost in self worth. Becoming very decisive and slow to move once I've made a decision. Starting to develop irritability towards ignorance, people trying to control me. Alienate siblings and to some degree my mother. Don't give a ****. Apathy about people judging me and not really caring what they think in the slightest. Making guy friends and losing some girl friends. Continuously told by my subconscious that it's not working and that I should just stop it. Establish baseline on Shannon's character by reading as much as I feel I need to trust his work. Decide that he's too much of a perfectionist to allow garbage out under his name. Adds credibility to what I read about copy protection. Scrap together funds to get out of the copy protection zone. Do on 28 Feb 2014. Notice a small click in anxiety/paranoia part of brain. Keep going. Not really social throughout as that has never been my problem. My problem was not being able to handle me in my own space and my own thoughts.
March 2014 - stage 3 - Feeling more intolerant to people wasting my time and resources. Not caring as much about if I get a girl. Enjoy my alone time with just my thoughts. Believe I have truck loads of worth and value to add to others.
RE: Ike's AM 5.0 Journey - brightike - 03-12-2014
Negative self talk during a practical employment test last week. Haven't heard this much garbage from my own head since Nov last year. Not sure what AM is pushing me through, but a lot to do with self worth and value especially when it comes to validation from my job. Confidence in myself is still stupid high even though I messed up big time on my practical. The employer pushes for my references, am too busy to send them to him. Get a email one day and then a phone call the next to do retest (apparently they don't ever do this). I never would have had the confidence to do this before. Now I'll get to it when I make time for it. Thank goodness for Alpha.
RE: Ike's AM 5.0 Journey - brightike - 03-15-2014
AM 5.0 Stage 3 day 15 - 10-12hrs/ day (in balance with what I have done in previous stages). Needed more sleep, so added hypersleep tuesday(used it that night and thursday night. Won't be again until thurs next week)
Met a super successful beautiful girl at a local coffee shop. Never would have talked to her, but she engaged me. As I was leaving she saw me getting ready and she timed her packing up to leave at the same time as me. As she was crossing the street beside me she almost got hit by a car because she was looking at me and I wasn't breaking eye contact. I said hi and she beelined for me and started talking to me. We chatted for a few min and I walked away. She wanted me to get her number, but I said "I guess I'll see you here sometime."
Short form : ran into her again the following day chatted with her about business, ownership mentality, duplication, etc. asked for her number. (Huge trouble with this before when I'm attracted to a girl like this, would have expected that she wouldn't have wanted to because of a lack of self worth). When she gave it "she said make sure that you text me so that I have yours."
Thurs - Hung out with her. Didn't want sex, but I have a tendancy to escalate really quick and part of my desire of things to get out of AM 5.0 is to have more control in that area. As in I'm alone with a girl and I don't feel the overwhelming desire to turn it into something more than just hanging out aka being selective and owning the decision to be with them instead of riding the lust wave.
Yesterday - I stayed over at her place. (Ultimate long term goal is to find a great woman, get married and have a whole brood obsessed with world domination and propagating the species. Build a business with a hefty residule income and live free and do what I want, when I want.) of course because of that mentality I asked her to date.... After meeting her three days before. Ugh. Got to know her more through talking and being intimate. (I find when I'm reading women, once I kiss them/ be intimate with them I know tons more than they will ever tell me with their words) she kept wanting to know tons about me as a kid going up. Instinct told me that she doesn't need to hear about/ I don't what to tell her about my stuff. This is new. Normally, you ask, I tell. Don't care what you think about it. It's part of my journey.
@Shannon - Does anything that I'm doing here appear to be in conflict with your subs or is there something that I can actively shift in my mentality to aide AM 5.0 in being more effective?
RE: Ike's AM 5.0 Journey - EricNortman - 03-17-2014
I Like your Journey,please Continue to write your journey until you finish
the program/I Considering If to buy this program AM 5.0.
RE: Ike's AM 5.0 Journey - JackOfHearts - 03-17-2014
AM5 is not in the store anymore, It has been replace by AM6 which is much more powerful.
RE: Ike's AM 5.0 Journey - EricNortman - 03-17-2014
YEAHH You Are Right,Thx For Noticing Me
RE: Ike's AM 5.0 Journey - EricNortman - 03-17-2014
Hi My Question Is If My Friend Can Use The Program(AM6), His 16 Years Old
RE: Ike's AM 5.0 Journey - brightike - 03-17-2014
Eric,
If I could do it all over again I would do AM6.0, BUT I would do a couple of the other 3g-B programs first like... Emotional Pain Relief & Healing Aid for a two or three months just to clear the garbage out from my past, after that, Get Out Of Debt, and Love it Neat and Clean at the same time, but that's just where I am. As for as the under 18 - Shannon is very clear that AM 6.0 WILL NOT WORK if you are under 18.
RE: Ike's AM 5.0 Journey - EricNortman - 03-18-2014
Could AM5 Work under 18?
RE: Ike's AM 5.0 Journey - JackOfHearts - 03-18-2014
It could work but it's not recommended, it's too powerful, tell him to do LTU instead it's more safe and he won't waste his time.
Plus LTU is 5G meaning it's more powerful technology than AM5 which is 4G and LTU is cheaper, easier to use (1 stage).
RE: Ike's AM 5.0 Journey - brightike - 03-26-2014
AM 5.0 Stage 3 - Day 25, 10-12 hrs/day.
Sunk the interaction with the successful girl. I'm big on doing stuff in relationships and the last time we were together she said she isn't up for a relationship right now. I have been aloof and don't really care if something comes of it. Actually don't really care about women right now at all.
I've been spending time with friends, new people a little bit, but all in all I enjoy my own company. Recognize this as in the past being anti social, but this is different. I'm not disliking being around people. I'm just happy with being with myself in my own space and not needing anyone else to fill that or satisfy anything in me. Went through a super huge antisocial patch at the beginning of this month, but that was as much because people were trying to control me as much as anything else, so I was isolating to keep away from the manipulators.
The last three or so days I've been starting to be proactive about meeting people again, but a different calibre and social class than I have in the past. Also not befriending just females which is uncharacteristic for me.
Hiccuped and missed the full night on two days this week. Worked 4pm till midnight then 5am til 1pm nap 45 min and then 4pm till midnight. That happened twice. Missed two nights, so to compensate for the two 6 hour nights I will add three days before change over. I believe the formula is 1.5 times the days missed.
Shannon - long term - if my intent is to do AM 6.0 after this run can I do Seek the Challenge after month 4 or should I really hunker down and do my first run without any add-ons. I have a list of things I would like to do and I'm not sure how to make it all work with your subs.
OGSF
Debt Free
Seek the Challenge
BASE
WM
LLF
DAOS
ASC
AYP...
TLAM
If I remember this correctly, there is a 32 day gap between programs (AM5&6) is it advisable to do any of these in between? Or would it be better just to let my brain chill. Thanks for your time.
Just had another thought... AM5.0 then WM then AM6.0 or AM 5.0 then AM 6.0 the WM 2.0 (or whatever you have built at that time)
RE: Ike's AM 5.0 Journey - JackOfHearts - 03-27-2014
I Have been thinking the same thing about what to do next. AM5.0 then WM2 then AM6.0 or AM 5.0 then AM 6.0 the WM 2.0. I have choose AM6 because I think I'm didn't get all from the Alpha program yet. I think I would get fair result from WM2 but I want to be a full alpha before doing WM2.
RE: Ike's AM 5.0 Journey - brightike - 04-02-2014
AM 5.0, Stage 3 - Day 32, 10-12 hrs/Day
So in this last week I have went through a whole bunch of stupid resistance crap. Two days after my last update I went into anti-social "All women are conniving" mode. That lasted a day or two, pushed through it, but not without going through a bunch of super vivid dreams/ nightmares.
Almost all were about sex and I broke down and ended up craving porn three days in a row and then after the last dream on monday I had no desire for porn in the slightest (normally it's in the back of my head and I push it away) As well, noticing that the women at the restaurant that I work at are acting different. Mostly because I started delegating and directing them when they all stand around yapping. A week ago I cared, now, not at all. Having to fight the urge to hunker down.
Looking forward to the change on day 35 due to a couple mess ups during the month. Very curious about how it's going to affect me as well as adding maybe adding OGSF for stage 4 or.... Maybe just waiting till stage 5 to do Seek The Challenge. I remember reading when I first came on here that a lot of times people discover subs and then leap on everything and they screw themselves up.... NO DOUBT... When you find a solution for the crap that you have had trouble changing your whole life. I'm 32 and in 3 months AM 5.0 Has managed to do what I have had trouble doing for the last two years on my own. Namely accepting and loving myself. Realizing that I have value (still working on this one). Accepting that I deserve a great life, etc. It's nuts!
As a side note after looking around.. I may do LTU for three months before WM or AM 6.0, but ultimately that depends on where I'm at when AM5.0 is done.
RE: Ike's AM 5.0 Journey - brightike - 04-04-2014
AM 5.0 Stage 3 - Day 34, 10-12 hrs/Day
Something completely switched in me yesterday. I didn't tell you all this, but the day of my last post I had a cute (6-7) girl randomly give me her number on a bill after talking to her for about 2 min. Yesterday I had a type of girl that I'm not particularly attracted to compliment me and give me her number. It's an interesting side effect of AM5. Might be part of the self acceptance aspect.
I started doing EFT as well to help release some of the psychological baggage. I have found this technique VERY effective. The more I think about wanting to do other subs to supplement AM5, the less that I want to. I want the full effects of AM5 and not some watered down version due to impatience. I'm glad that I found EFT so that I can pull some of the OGSF stuff out without having to listen to another sub. It is a little draining though.
One more day, then stage 4 whoop, whoop. So excited to keep moving forward! Have an awesome Friday folks!