05-23-2014, 07:05 AM
Day 5! :
I had the best sleep of my life last night. It's been very difficult for me to get a very deep sleep but last night I did. I also slept for longer than I usually did. You can not imagine how I feel right now when I haven't been able to sleep like this for years.
I came upon some interesting realizations last night too. The reason why I'm so anxious and fearful of everything is because I take things so personally all the time. I'm personally affected by every little action taken by others against me and this keeps me anxious and on guard at all times.
I also realized that I have a belief that you can only be so good in life. You can only have a good job, and if you have a good job then you can't be a fun person. If you stand up for yourself then you can't have any friends. These are limiting beliefs I'm looking forward to releasing.
I did some releasing on perfectionism and my relationship to it and I feel like this helped a lot. Perfectionism has been holding me back all my life. Because I can't be perfect at something I won't attempt it and this stops me from doing anything.
Changes I've been noticing:
Less tolerance for bull.
More trust and confidence in myself and my decisions.
More alpha body language
Less anxiety
I'm finally looking forward to achieving things for the first time in my life. I've never looked forward to succeeding, it's always just been something I've gone through the motions to achieve.
More self validation than ever before.
I don't really care about women. I have general anxiety and it makes it hard to talk to others, especially women, but right now I'm just focusing on myself. Women do approach me now more than they did before, but I'm not trying to get a girlfriend.
Acceptance of my failures is going up. Before when I failed I'd lie to myself to make myself feel better and change my perception of things to suit me. I've twisted the truth so much I don't even know where I stand with myself. I'm also accepting things like the fact that I've been depressed or anxious for these last few years. I refused to accept it because I believed if I didn't it would to away. But now I see that I have to get through it.
I'm connecting with my deeper beliefs more than ever. Beliefs I didn't even know I had or thought of are becoming more apparent.
I had the best sleep of my life last night. It's been very difficult for me to get a very deep sleep but last night I did. I also slept for longer than I usually did. You can not imagine how I feel right now when I haven't been able to sleep like this for years.
I came upon some interesting realizations last night too. The reason why I'm so anxious and fearful of everything is because I take things so personally all the time. I'm personally affected by every little action taken by others against me and this keeps me anxious and on guard at all times.
I also realized that I have a belief that you can only be so good in life. You can only have a good job, and if you have a good job then you can't be a fun person. If you stand up for yourself then you can't have any friends. These are limiting beliefs I'm looking forward to releasing.
I did some releasing on perfectionism and my relationship to it and I feel like this helped a lot. Perfectionism has been holding me back all my life. Because I can't be perfect at something I won't attempt it and this stops me from doing anything.
Changes I've been noticing:
Less tolerance for bull.
More trust and confidence in myself and my decisions.
More alpha body language
Less anxiety
I'm finally looking forward to achieving things for the first time in my life. I've never looked forward to succeeding, it's always just been something I've gone through the motions to achieve.
More self validation than ever before.
I don't really care about women. I have general anxiety and it makes it hard to talk to others, especially women, but right now I'm just focusing on myself. Women do approach me now more than they did before, but I'm not trying to get a girlfriend.
Acceptance of my failures is going up. Before when I failed I'd lie to myself to make myself feel better and change my perception of things to suit me. I've twisted the truth so much I don't even know where I stand with myself. I'm also accepting things like the fact that I've been depressed or anxious for these last few years. I refused to accept it because I believed if I didn't it would to away. But now I see that I have to get through it.
I'm connecting with my deeper beliefs more than ever. Beliefs I didn't even know I had or thought of are becoming more apparent.
