05-17-2014, 07:01 AM
This week was one of the hardests weeks of my entire life.
Fortunately, all the issues solved in a good way. It helped me to learn a lot.
But I don't feel so alpha in the last weeks, I'm not a leader and I don't want to be one, girls don't chase me anymore, I'm still a negative, dramatic, apprehensive, co-dependent, manipulative and a serious guy. I still get involved with crazy, manipulative and low self-esteem girls. My self-esteem is still at a low level.
I'm thinking seriously in leaving AM6 and returning to LTU, I was feeling better and happier with LTU and with AM6 it has been a crazy ride in a roller coaster with ups and downs, the last "down" was really dangerous and it was very close to ruin my life and others too.
Fortunately, all the issues solved in a good way. It helped me to learn a lot.
But I don't feel so alpha in the last weeks, I'm not a leader and I don't want to be one, girls don't chase me anymore, I'm still a negative, dramatic, apprehensive, co-dependent, manipulative and a serious guy. I still get involved with crazy, manipulative and low self-esteem girls. My self-esteem is still at a low level.
I'm thinking seriously in leaving AM6 and returning to LTU, I was feeling better and happier with LTU and with AM6 it has been a crazy ride in a roller coaster with ups and downs, the last "down" was really dangerous and it was very close to ruin my life and others too.
