05-10-2014, 01:10 PM
So - last day of Stage 4 begins soon, I hope.
While I *think* that not much has happened in this stage, I *know* that this is not true. I am travelling and am trying to find new contacts and improve my skills. I had a few downs the last days, but compared to what I had lots of years ago in similar situations, it has changed significantly ( know that I havent been really a recluse at all, but constantly crossfired by my situations I was in job, friends, past, childhood etc, which produced a lot of depression or anxiety ). I am going out into the world, but still am not talking all to much. In fact, I was talking more to people before I started the program, but the reason might be that the fear of not talking or missing something was the incentive. But that fear is gone, so I need to find real reasons to talk people up. And if I don't want it - I don't do it.
I am thinking about continuing after AM 6 with another longterm program, which helps overcoming fear and helps in social situations. BAMM would be cool, but I'd have to apply first. However, there are other possibilities.
While I *think* that not much has happened in this stage, I *know* that this is not true. I am travelling and am trying to find new contacts and improve my skills. I had a few downs the last days, but compared to what I had lots of years ago in similar situations, it has changed significantly ( know that I havent been really a recluse at all, but constantly crossfired by my situations I was in job, friends, past, childhood etc, which produced a lot of depression or anxiety ). I am going out into the world, but still am not talking all to much. In fact, I was talking more to people before I started the program, but the reason might be that the fear of not talking or missing something was the incentive. But that fear is gone, so I need to find real reasons to talk people up. And if I don't want it - I don't do it.
I am thinking about continuing after AM 6 with another longterm program, which helps overcoming fear and helps in social situations. BAMM would be cool, but I'd have to apply first. However, there are other possibilities.
Focus and push through. (Uncle B)
