04-29-2014, 12:00 PM
Been a while since I've posted. I've noticed that I've let go of a good amount of shame over the problems I've been facing. Opened up to more people about my issues and stopped being so secretive of everything. So things have turned around for me in that I no longer beat myself up so much and make things worse. Instead I see the problem as something I can overcome somehow, I just don't know the way yet.
I was debating whether or not I should go on antidepressants to treat my chronic depression. I was seriously considering it for a while because I was running out of options. But today I decided I'm going to look into some kind of alternative medicine doctor that can put me on a regimen of vitamins and supplements. If that doesn't work I'll try the antidepressants, but I really think there's some physiological reason for this and it's not all mental.
Which I've realized that my mind tends to look for ways how to get out of the depression, but the fact is I've struggled with this for years and I've realized that going inside my head is the worst thing to do. There's a tendency for me to believe if I just meditate more or find out what's wrong I'll overcome it, which isn't the case. So now I'm just focusing on enjoying my life as much as possible and not getting caught up in analyzing my beliefs and whatever. Until I fix the depression it's going to stay there, so I might as well try to make the best of things and put my energy into other stuff rather than fighting with it so much.
I was debating whether or not I should go on antidepressants to treat my chronic depression. I was seriously considering it for a while because I was running out of options. But today I decided I'm going to look into some kind of alternative medicine doctor that can put me on a regimen of vitamins and supplements. If that doesn't work I'll try the antidepressants, but I really think there's some physiological reason for this and it's not all mental.
Which I've realized that my mind tends to look for ways how to get out of the depression, but the fact is I've struggled with this for years and I've realized that going inside my head is the worst thing to do. There's a tendency for me to believe if I just meditate more or find out what's wrong I'll overcome it, which isn't the case. So now I'm just focusing on enjoying my life as much as possible and not getting caught up in analyzing my beliefs and whatever. Until I fix the depression it's going to stay there, so I might as well try to make the best of things and put my energy into other stuff rather than fighting with it so much.
