Onward...

[Ruffian]

Someone (the universe or whomever you deem it) is trying to get me to think illogically. I'm basically a logical thinker but also a believer in what cannot be seen so I really don't understand what's trying to be shown to me. I don't really understand how to think illogically. I can think outside the box, but I don't' really understand what's being asked of me.

Hey Patti, it sounds like you may be experiencing μετάνοια, or metanoia. My preferred definition of this word is “transformation of thinking.” For me, when I get to the scale of self-change that could be considered transformative, it is pretty much always preceded by overwhelm (or, as I like to call it, freaking out.)

I recently read a quote by neuroscientist Candace Pert that said that “the brain is a receiver, not a source.” I have seen in myself that what passes for thinking is, most of the time, an unconscious process of association. It's useful in some circumstances, but, more often, extremely limiting. It also begs the question, what is real thinking? How does “mind” differ from “brain?” What else needs to change, for the thinking to transform?

My suggestion is that you make time to sit quietly and uninterrupted each day. Even just a few minutes is good, more time is better. You don't do anything except sense your body. Whatever else is occurring for you internally, just keep coming back to sensing the body. I'd be interested to hear how this goes for you.

Good luck!