04-15-2014, 11:45 AM
Stage 2 and 3 recovered a bit of anxiety and nervousness. Feelings I know, and feelings that more often than not stopped me in my tracks to a life full of joy. I did not only passively listen to the subs, but I *had* to do other things, like visualizing or some nlp, just to change my self image more actively and self responsible. After 3-4 weeks a lot of things changed.
Stage 3 is finished. While being on it, I pondered what I am going to do with my life from now on. I definitely no longer want to work as a slave for some company, for people who would never care for me or give me a cent when I need it. That's over. So I have to figure out, what I am going to do. I definitely want to become more wealthy now. This wish has become more intense. Maybe I should have done BAMM.
> My job situation still has not changed, of course.
> I expect this going down the hill before summer.
> I wonder what ends faster, AM 6 or this. Smile
It's over. One week into S 3. AM 6 wins by 3 months.
> There is lack of organisation and people have a strange attitude.
Yes they have. They could no longer pay me, as their finances are not in order.
But THANK YOU GOD. That has been solved for me. It would have taken me about 4 weeks longer until I would have decided to just no longer appear there. I would have been devastated years ago, but this was merely a ZEN-situation. I can not explain it otherwise. Because I was nice, they gave me 5-6 weeks paid leave.
So I traveled a little bit and went to the city I left after AM 5
For the first time in this city, I actively searched for bars and restaurant to eat, drink and chill there. I went there alone. And I did not care but had fun. One time as I sat down on a table, a woman at the neighbouring table said to her friend "I could never come here alone" lol. I smiled, because I can do that.
BTW, lots of smiling. Everywhere. But I really wanted to be alone.
As I sat at a big table ( we don't wait for the waiters to tell us where to sit in Europe ), the waitress hinted at me to please sit at a smaller table. At first I told her "I don't think this restaurant will get full today" and she answered "You never know". At first I did what she told me but then thought about what just happened, a hint of anger, then I stood up and left and paid a royal sum for a meal with a royal tip elsewhere.
First week of Stage 4.
I am feeling great, I have to say. Better than last year with AM 5 (but last year was a really bad one, job wisem which means AM 5 is great), but I also did some own work, as you have read. I am in the fortunate situation, that I still have some money on my bank account, so I could
- just doing next to nothing the next months
- travel and see something from the world
- invest in business
I am not sure what to do at the moment. As I said, I should have done BAMM
Stage 3 is finished. While being on it, I pondered what I am going to do with my life from now on. I definitely no longer want to work as a slave for some company, for people who would never care for me or give me a cent when I need it. That's over. So I have to figure out, what I am going to do. I definitely want to become more wealthy now. This wish has become more intense. Maybe I should have done BAMM.
> My job situation still has not changed, of course.
> I expect this going down the hill before summer.
> I wonder what ends faster, AM 6 or this. Smile
It's over. One week into S 3. AM 6 wins by 3 months.
> There is lack of organisation and people have a strange attitude.
Yes they have. They could no longer pay me, as their finances are not in order.
But THANK YOU GOD. That has been solved for me. It would have taken me about 4 weeks longer until I would have decided to just no longer appear there. I would have been devastated years ago, but this was merely a ZEN-situation. I can not explain it otherwise. Because I was nice, they gave me 5-6 weeks paid leave.
So I traveled a little bit and went to the city I left after AM 5
For the first time in this city, I actively searched for bars and restaurant to eat, drink and chill there. I went there alone. And I did not care but had fun. One time as I sat down on a table, a woman at the neighbouring table said to her friend "I could never come here alone" lol. I smiled, because I can do that. BTW, lots of smiling. Everywhere. But I really wanted to be alone.
As I sat at a big table ( we don't wait for the waiters to tell us where to sit in Europe ), the waitress hinted at me to please sit at a smaller table. At first I told her "I don't think this restaurant will get full today" and she answered "You never know". At first I did what she told me but then thought about what just happened, a hint of anger, then I stood up and left and paid a royal sum for a meal with a royal tip elsewhere.
First week of Stage 4.
I am feeling great, I have to say. Better than last year with AM 5 (but last year was a really bad one, job wisem which means AM 5 is great), but I also did some own work, as you have read. I am in the fortunate situation, that I still have some money on my bank account, so I could
- just doing next to nothing the next months
- travel and see something from the world
- invest in business
I am not sure what to do at the moment. As I said, I should have done BAMM
Focus and push through. (Uncle B)
