04-08-2014, 05:29 PM
I'll be running through AM6. I've decided I am going to do a month refresher of WM once I've finished EPRHA then head onto AM6 as I really miss some of the effects of WM. I've kept some but lost some which is understandable as I've only done one run of AM and WM.
So it's again been a long while since I've posted. I've been keeping myself really busy lately organizing a new place to live as well as starting at a new gym and starting many new projects at work. I've been through some major patches of resistance but really can see and feel that a very deep seeded fear of rejection is being worked on.
I've seen this in my dreams like the one I had last night where it was my birthday and I was in a old house by myself and it was my birthday. I went outside and there was no one to be seen anywhere, the streets were completely barren and it felt as though the whole world had rejected me. Upon waking today I felt great and I was able to talk to people quite effortlessly. This has been building over the last few days, I've been finding people smiling at me more and conversing with me more as well as myself conversing with others more. People I would usually just say "Hi" to i've started to have conversations with, I must admit this was rather unexpected from this sub. My self validation is going up as well, in the past when people (especially girls) had smiled at me I would get this rush of feeling validated now its more neutral either way and both positive and negative reactions don't have much of an effect. I'll be interested to see how this unfolds over the next few weeks
So it's again been a long while since I've posted. I've been keeping myself really busy lately organizing a new place to live as well as starting at a new gym and starting many new projects at work. I've been through some major patches of resistance but really can see and feel that a very deep seeded fear of rejection is being worked on.
I've seen this in my dreams like the one I had last night where it was my birthday and I was in a old house by myself and it was my birthday. I went outside and there was no one to be seen anywhere, the streets were completely barren and it felt as though the whole world had rejected me. Upon waking today I felt great and I was able to talk to people quite effortlessly. This has been building over the last few days, I've been finding people smiling at me more and conversing with me more as well as myself conversing with others more. People I would usually just say "Hi" to i've started to have conversations with, I must admit this was rather unexpected from this sub. My self validation is going up as well, in the past when people (especially girls) had smiled at me I would get this rush of feeling validated now its more neutral either way and both positive and negative reactions don't have much of an effect. I'll be interested to see how this unfolds over the next few weeks
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
