04-08-2014, 07:10 AM
AM 5.0 Stage 4 - Day 3, 10-12 hrs
Woke up beating the crap out of myself mentally this morning. I started Tapping in my dreams which is kind of weird. A lot of conflict and fighting in my dreams. There was a fair bit of resistance in my 1st stage as well, so this might be more of this. I think that the only reason that I haven't tried to slip OGSF in on the side is that I committed to doing this without. I haven't had a whole lot of success in the past with managing my GSF. I have typically succumbed to it.
I think that going without will be a little difficult, but I pushed through Stage one without, so I think that I should be able to do it. I'm tapping away the crap that comes up. I think the biggest thing that comes up is that I have very little motivation to get back into my skilled trade. I'm great with people and what I used to do has not one thing to do with people.... "Get back in the shop peon and turn some pieces". Buuuuutttt... there is a crap ton of money in it. What I'm doing right now.. lots of people. Maybe big money in the long run (I've been there 7 wks and they want to make me a shift leader). Right now though, going backward every month. I've slowed it down to a trickle. Why am I not motivated to get something high paying... wth. Just needed to rant.
Ike
Woke up beating the crap out of myself mentally this morning. I started Tapping in my dreams which is kind of weird. A lot of conflict and fighting in my dreams. There was a fair bit of resistance in my 1st stage as well, so this might be more of this. I think that the only reason that I haven't tried to slip OGSF in on the side is that I committed to doing this without. I haven't had a whole lot of success in the past with managing my GSF. I have typically succumbed to it.
I think that going without will be a little difficult, but I pushed through Stage one without, so I think that I should be able to do it. I'm tapping away the crap that comes up. I think the biggest thing that comes up is that I have very little motivation to get back into my skilled trade. I'm great with people and what I used to do has not one thing to do with people.... "Get back in the shop peon and turn some pieces". Buuuuutttt... there is a crap ton of money in it. What I'm doing right now.. lots of people. Maybe big money in the long run (I've been there 7 wks and they want to make me a shift leader). Right now though, going backward every month. I've slowed it down to a trickle. Why am I not motivated to get something high paying... wth. Just needed to rant.
Ike
