04-05-2014, 07:13 AM
Hitting a rough patch lately. Financial situation got worse and now I'm dealing with a lot of anxiety. A lot of perfectionism resurfaced again. Mostly with my own situation and not being patient with myself. So I get caught up in all the ideas of what I should do, which just fills me with guilt and actually hinders my progress.
Which got me thinking about my fear and anxiety and stuff like EFT or something to remove those blocks. It never works for me, and the reason is because I don't want to remove the fear. Yes I want to move past the fear on a conscious level, but subconsciously I still hold onto it. Maybe somewhere down the road I'll seek out a practitioner or something, but I've already established that using these healing modalities on myself is a losing battle. A lot of the time I'll end up feeling worse because I beat myself up that I can't just let it go. The only thing that has given me consistent relief is these subliminals and meditation. So I'll stick with that and keep pushing little by little.
I think time is really the only answer for me. I can't force or rush these things, no matter how much I want to. I think part of that stems from the perfectionism, wanting to get to the end goal as fast as possible so I don't see the faults along the way. I think learning to be more at ease with myself would probably do a lot of good for me. But that's something I've always seemed to struggle with.
Which got me thinking about my fear and anxiety and stuff like EFT or something to remove those blocks. It never works for me, and the reason is because I don't want to remove the fear. Yes I want to move past the fear on a conscious level, but subconsciously I still hold onto it. Maybe somewhere down the road I'll seek out a practitioner or something, but I've already established that using these healing modalities on myself is a losing battle. A lot of the time I'll end up feeling worse because I beat myself up that I can't just let it go. The only thing that has given me consistent relief is these subliminals and meditation. So I'll stick with that and keep pushing little by little.
I think time is really the only answer for me. I can't force or rush these things, no matter how much I want to. I think part of that stems from the perfectionism, wanting to get to the end goal as fast as possible so I don't see the faults along the way. I think learning to be more at ease with myself would probably do a lot of good for me. But that's something I've always seemed to struggle with.
