RainbowAbyssAlpha

[Supernova]

Hey, just an update
My speakers broke and I couldn't get
new ones until a week ago, but in total
this is my third week on And Alpha stage one.
I honestly cant tell what is going on.
While I do have a new drive inside time
its seems to be pushing nowhere,
I have become very antisocial
apathetic and at times depressed.
I wanna cry and scream but at the same times am
emotionally detached. I am enjoying a new self
comfort and subtle confidence but I feel almost
invisible at times and very unable to do anything. My sense with woman
is in the garbage, I feel arrogant and at the same time needy, despite having one incredible night of success where it was pure freedom but I use to get those fairly consistently before I started subs. Anyway I feel like this sub is wrecking me, while I am already much more indifferent its not a happy carefree, in fact I don't really care about anything except sex, a little bit, my life has become boring, irritated, disastisfied and full of craving with hopelessness, I now this is very negative but I don't know what to do, do I pummel through this, how long does this last? I rarely experienced any of this before starting this sub. Is this all my negativity coming up, or responses to my life based on the sub? I felt 1000X better on WM, and the 'holes' I had on it in retrospect seemed to be normal responses to such a quick change in reality. In fact before any subs, I felt really good about my life, I did things from my own intentions and was very Alpha and indifferent about woman in general, the prospect of a new lifestyle which included woman and intimacy seemed to become what felt right which was why I chose WM. I couldn't feel further away from love or intimacy with myself or woman right now and I feel no energy to change anything. At the same time I have this dissatisfied drive pulling in my chest. Is this just an intense phase that I'll look back on and think it was worth it or is this is the theme of Alpha until a couple months in-me against the world, disconnection, anger, could give less sh-t attitude? I understand why going through this could be so healing but it sucks. Alright Is this just an intense phase that I'll look back on and think it was worth it or is this is the theme of Alpha until a couple months in-me against the world, disconnection, anger, could give less sh-t attitude?:@ On the positive side, I have been much more comfortable socially with zero anxiety, almost cause I am so bored and feel like things would go nowhere that it doesn't matter around anybody and have been leading both conversations and interactions. Anyway input would be much appreciated-

I felt the same in stage 1, really moody, I got annoyed with things and people easily and had some anger. I'm a few days into stage 2 now and I feel a lot better. I still have down moments, but overall I definitely feel better than I did during stage 1. Although I do feel worse than I did before I started the Alpha Male sub.

I think the Alpha Male sub is one you've got to stick to for the long haul to see the results. I don't think it will be easy but I do think it will be worth it 5 months from now.