Onward...

[Patti]

I realized today that I don't feel deserving of good things. Or to feel deserving is an arrogant feeling. I feel like this feeling keeps me humble. Interestingly, even though I've always have been a very thankful person, I see everything in my life as "good enough". And that "good enough" feeling keeps me grounded, as if things get better than good enough, then bad things may happen. So I guess maybe I stay "middle of the road" to keep things even? This seems like a tough rut to get out of! Too much fear!