Stage 5, Day 10,
Still have to master my Tuesday mornings; I'm such as zombie when this happens, since I've fasted before. I need to eat Monday mornings; long story short, I got up at 8 instead of 5:15am.
I had breakfast and went to the gym. Good workout. Did several hours of schoolwork.
One thing that I watched was 'Authentic Man Program; Power of Appreciation', which shows you to put more importance on the connection than on the content of a conversation. I truly internalized that today. I walked to my meeting with a good vibe.
At 3, I was supposed to meet for a date. She shows up at 4 (I read and hung out at the café and managed to finish a book I intended to finish; not a big deal), so turns out she gets this pretty hilarious call from some random phone number, saying that she watches too much porn (prank?) and missed the bus to come out. Not only that, her phone is screwy, tricked her into thinking it was one hour earlier.
I started using those conversational "techniques" and had among the deepest, most connected conversation I've had in years (probably). But she states that she's the type to take things very slow, and won't even kiss a guy unless she completely trusts him with her heart. That didn't quite throw me, since it didn't try to. I was mentionning that directness and honesty is something important, and she basically knows that I'm interested. We spent a bunch more time at my apartment, chilling and jamming.
After she leaves (7pm), I do my 2 hours of practice, and then some.
At 11pm, she sends me a Facebook inbox message, saying - out of directness and honesty - that she's generally not interested in a relationship at the moment, but that she hopes that we can be friends. FUCKKKKK! I truly became really sad when I saw that.
I was really starting to warm up to this girl, and she had a whole bunch of qualities that I really like in a woman. I actually strongly considered monogamy, but that would've fallen apart cause she's gone for the summer. This might be a sign that monogamy isn't for me yet.. ON WITH SEX MAGNET, AS PLANNED!
Still have to master my Tuesday mornings; I'm such as zombie when this happens, since I've fasted before. I need to eat Monday mornings; long story short, I got up at 8 instead of 5:15am.
I had breakfast and went to the gym. Good workout. Did several hours of schoolwork.
One thing that I watched was 'Authentic Man Program; Power of Appreciation', which shows you to put more importance on the connection than on the content of a conversation. I truly internalized that today. I walked to my meeting with a good vibe.
At 3, I was supposed to meet for a date. She shows up at 4 (I read and hung out at the café and managed to finish a book I intended to finish; not a big deal), so turns out she gets this pretty hilarious call from some random phone number, saying that she watches too much porn (prank?) and missed the bus to come out. Not only that, her phone is screwy, tricked her into thinking it was one hour earlier.
I started using those conversational "techniques" and had among the deepest, most connected conversation I've had in years (probably). But she states that she's the type to take things very slow, and won't even kiss a guy unless she completely trusts him with her heart. That didn't quite throw me, since it didn't try to. I was mentionning that directness and honesty is something important, and she basically knows that I'm interested. We spent a bunch more time at my apartment, chilling and jamming.
After she leaves (7pm), I do my 2 hours of practice, and then some.
At 11pm, she sends me a Facebook inbox message, saying - out of directness and honesty - that she's generally not interested in a relationship at the moment, but that she hopes that we can be friends. FUCKKKKK! I truly became really sad when I saw that.
I was really starting to warm up to this girl, and she had a whole bunch of qualities that I really like in a woman. I actually strongly considered monogamy, but that would've fallen apart cause she's gone for the summer. This might be a sign that monogamy isn't for me yet.. ON WITH SEX MAGNET, AS PLANNED!
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