03-01-2014, 06:45 PM
So I think I've been in denial kind of. This actually came as a realization to me the other day when I sliced my finger open after a glass bowl shattered in my hand. Nothing like looking at your bone through a cut to remind you of your mortality.
Anyway, I realized not everything is mental. The subconscious mind, while powerful, is not going to make up for some deficiencies in one's body. On top of that, resistance may be worse because of that deficiency. Essentially physical issues in the body complicate mental issues way more. So I have to start really researching possible physical reasons for the way I feel.
But the problem is everywhere I look it's all unreliable information. One person says sugar is the cause of everything. Another says food intolerance. Another says genetics. Another says fungi. Another electromagnetic radiation. I don't know what it is with humans and their desire to pin one thing as the cause of all suffering. I have a bad habit of doing it as well. But it makes things incredibly complicated. At times I'm left wondering, if stuff like diet is so important to mental health, how come some people eat junk and are still happy and well adjusted? No matter how many times someone tries to make a health rule, there's someone out there breaking it and they are fine. Sometimes I think hypochondria is on the rise and people are manifesting their symptoms purely through their own minds.
Maybe I don't have anything physically wrong with me and it is all mental. Then again, how would I know? That's what kills me, I don't know. I feel like I've had this lifelong problem and I can't find a solution to it. It's just a shotgun approach along with a lot of guessing, and it's so tiring. The technology and tools just aren't there yet and I wish they were. I pretty much battle every day with the question, "Am I just making excuses and not stepping up to the plate? Or am I dealing with something very hard and I'm not giving myself the understanding I need?"
Anyway, I realized not everything is mental. The subconscious mind, while powerful, is not going to make up for some deficiencies in one's body. On top of that, resistance may be worse because of that deficiency. Essentially physical issues in the body complicate mental issues way more. So I have to start really researching possible physical reasons for the way I feel.
But the problem is everywhere I look it's all unreliable information. One person says sugar is the cause of everything. Another says food intolerance. Another says genetics. Another says fungi. Another electromagnetic radiation. I don't know what it is with humans and their desire to pin one thing as the cause of all suffering. I have a bad habit of doing it as well. But it makes things incredibly complicated. At times I'm left wondering, if stuff like diet is so important to mental health, how come some people eat junk and are still happy and well adjusted? No matter how many times someone tries to make a health rule, there's someone out there breaking it and they are fine. Sometimes I think hypochondria is on the rise and people are manifesting their symptoms purely through their own minds.
Maybe I don't have anything physically wrong with me and it is all mental. Then again, how would I know? That's what kills me, I don't know. I feel like I've had this lifelong problem and I can't find a solution to it. It's just a shotgun approach along with a lot of guessing, and it's so tiring. The technology and tools just aren't there yet and I wish they were. I pretty much battle every day with the question, "Am I just making excuses and not stepping up to the plate? Or am I dealing with something very hard and I'm not giving myself the understanding I need?"
