02-19-2014, 04:11 PM
Lately I've been having days when I am at a place of complete peace and acceptance within myself. I've felt a lot of the old crap that I used to hold onto being ripped away from me. Its swinging backwards and forwards at the moment some days are amazing and others are almost the opposite but I know for me this is just an adjustment period while I let go and move on.
I've noticed that self validation is starting to rise lately. Its coming through in stopping of approval seeking and doing and saying what I want to. This self validation has been a lot stronger and more genuine than anything I had felt during AM. For me I just needed to work through a lot of my past and let go of a lot of fear and shame. Before I could take on some of the qualities that were attempting to be instilled through AM.
Shame is almost non existent these days but I still have a fair way to go when it comes to fear but that is all just a matter of time.
One thing that has become apparent to me over the last week is how much less angry I am internally. In the past I would have constant judgement about myself and others running through my head which caused me a great amount of anger which was never expressed. These days there are very few that come up. Again this comes back to self acceptance.
People are wanting to be around me more and more and I've had to start saying "No" a lot more from stopping myself getting burnt out due to going out to much but on the flip side of the coin I don't feel the need to go out so much, I enjoy my own time.
I've noticed that self validation is starting to rise lately. Its coming through in stopping of approval seeking and doing and saying what I want to. This self validation has been a lot stronger and more genuine than anything I had felt during AM. For me I just needed to work through a lot of my past and let go of a lot of fear and shame. Before I could take on some of the qualities that were attempting to be instilled through AM.
Shame is almost non existent these days but I still have a fair way to go when it comes to fear but that is all just a matter of time.
One thing that has become apparent to me over the last week is how much less angry I am internally. In the past I would have constant judgement about myself and others running through my head which caused me a great amount of anger which was never expressed. These days there are very few that come up. Again this comes back to self acceptance.
People are wanting to be around me more and more and I've had to start saying "No" a lot more from stopping myself getting burnt out due to going out to much but on the flip side of the coin I don't feel the need to go out so much, I enjoy my own time.
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
