I feel there is something very deep and very painful that I'm trying to release, but the fear of releasing it is holding me back. As children we perceive things to be much bigger than we do as adults. I feel this is something from my childhood that if I experienced it as an adult, would not have the same impact. But possibly it is something I've been holding on to a long long time. I'm feeling both anxious in a nervous scared way and anxious in a way that I just want it to be over with. I'm not like many on this forum who actually have things that come up that they deal with. I mostly just have the emotional feelings that go with what ever is underlying in my subconscious when it releases itself. I can feel the fear of this in the pit of my stomach. On one side I have a fear of letting go of the fear and on the other I can't get rid of it fast enough.
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