02-11-2014, 06:51 PM
Stage 4, Day 8
Slept right past my usual 5:15am routine, woke up at 7am precisely. Didn't hold it against myself; I did fast the entire day before (total of roughly 30 hours) and jerk it right before bed. I had breakfast and did my 2nd morning ritual, as it was practically perfect timing. Little by little, my feeling of "blah" went away. I didn't feel like going to the gym, but went anyways.
Damn, my endurance went up big time. I'm doing density training involving circuit training, and both the total number of wrecks AND the weight has gone up. I felt like an absolute badass. Surely enough, I see a pretty woman that I wanted to chat her up. She's on the treadmill. I walk right up and introduce myself directly. I came directly from an intense 12 minute lifing spree, so my mind isn't on the topic of women. I'm blank on conversation, so is she, I have to get back to my workout. But we held some good eye contact.
I finish my workout and go back to her and say: "I thought I'd come back and see if you could come up with more to say". She smiles and we keep talking. She drops the "I got a boyfriend, by the way", and I didn't really care. It's strange how I don't really feel anything when talking to women, which is both good and bad.
I knock away a few hours on schoolwork, but my mind eventually became saturated, and then I went to the library to figure out how to place holds on books, and took a step to become a busker. I still need to call somebody to figure out some details.
My sex drive has gone up. It's much more than before. It's also my second day in a row watching porn. Don't know what to think about that.
Slept right past my usual 5:15am routine, woke up at 7am precisely. Didn't hold it against myself; I did fast the entire day before (total of roughly 30 hours) and jerk it right before bed. I had breakfast and did my 2nd morning ritual, as it was practically perfect timing. Little by little, my feeling of "blah" went away. I didn't feel like going to the gym, but went anyways.
Damn, my endurance went up big time. I'm doing density training involving circuit training, and both the total number of wrecks AND the weight has gone up. I felt like an absolute badass. Surely enough, I see a pretty woman that I wanted to chat her up. She's on the treadmill. I walk right up and introduce myself directly. I came directly from an intense 12 minute lifing spree, so my mind isn't on the topic of women. I'm blank on conversation, so is she, I have to get back to my workout. But we held some good eye contact.
I finish my workout and go back to her and say: "I thought I'd come back and see if you could come up with more to say". She smiles and we keep talking. She drops the "I got a boyfriend, by the way", and I didn't really care. It's strange how I don't really feel anything when talking to women, which is both good and bad.
I knock away a few hours on schoolwork, but my mind eventually became saturated, and then I went to the library to figure out how to place holds on books, and took a step to become a busker. I still need to call somebody to figure out some details.
My sex drive has gone up. It's much more than before. It's also my second day in a row watching porn. Don't know what to think about that.
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