02-10-2014, 02:15 PM
All I can say is, ouch. This is bringing up some heavy depression in me. Although last night before I went to sleep I thought about all the people in my head who might judge me or see me as weak. Not anyone I know, kind of the faceless people or more likely my own critical self evaluation about myself. I just said screw what they think. I have my own journey and my own problems and if they don't understand it doesn't matter. I've got enough to deal with, no point in making the negativity stronger by comparing myself to others.
Not really a complete 180 in thinking, but at least it's something. At least now I can focus on myself and getting better, regardless of what others think. When you're in the depths of depression it's hard to tell when you'll get out of it. Like navigating a dark corridor until you reach the light at the end. There's a lot of hopelessness and frustration, but also hope and expectation for things to get better.
Yesterday was a darker day than usual. Sometimes letting it be and not stressing about feeling better makes things move along faster. Avoiding really stressful things seems to be the key for me in recovering.
Not really a complete 180 in thinking, but at least it's something. At least now I can focus on myself and getting better, regardless of what others think. When you're in the depths of depression it's hard to tell when you'll get out of it. Like navigating a dark corridor until you reach the light at the end. There's a lot of hopelessness and frustration, but also hope and expectation for things to get better.
Yesterday was a darker day than usual. Sometimes letting it be and not stressing about feeling better makes things move along faster. Avoiding really stressful things seems to be the key for me in recovering.
