02-06-2014, 01:56 PM
Day 12-22
Forgot my Internet flash drive at home, so for about 10 days I was Internet-less.
Quite interesting what happened during this time period. I had numerous revelations, most of which were related to past relationships and some were basically concerned about me. I had a deep realization about the superiority-inferiority thing and how it actually goes. I did read about this in Maxwell Maltz' Psycho-Cybernetics, but it clicked on it's own a few days later. A lot of what I perceived to be outer issues actually are within me and my experiences in the past. I've read about this numerous times, but only now did it clicked. A long-awaited welcome, indeed.
When it comes to self-discipline, I find it that I'm on the right track to where I want to be with this, even though at times it's very challenging. Like for instance, there are times where I say to myself "I will abstain from masturbating today" for a few days in a row and I stick to it. Sometimes I fight for it and give in, but I'm not really that worried that I relapsed, I'll know I'll stick to it in the end. If this happened say a year ago, I would've felt bad and blame myself for it. I do have the tendency to do that from time to time, but this thing is slowly dying.
As with the physical aspect of my plan, it's going along GORGEOUSLY. I'm on my 34th day of the P90X and it's absolutely marvelous, I can't believe I look this good. I've never had these looks before, I'm feeling fitter than ever. At times, it's painstakingly hard, but hey, no pain no gain. The only thing I've kinda went "half-assed" about it was the yoga. I get reaaaaaaally bored during it and it's a challenge to go through it from start to finish, mainly because it's an hour and a half long and the first half is mostly the same 4 exercises over and over again ( ashtanga vinyasa stuff, sun salutations, warrior 1,2 and so forth ) mind-numbingly boring, but the latter half is quite nice, i like it. because of this, i'm really prone to either not do it when I'm supposed to and do it on my "day off" from exercise or skip it altogether because of really not being in the mood for it. 5 weeks, it happened 2 times and I had it in my program like 5 times ( today was the 6th time and today I skipped it, doing it tomorrow or sunday, but i am doing it ). Astonishingly, I see the difference yoga made to my body and I'm more flexible now than ever, actually. Not there yet, but it's still quite great.
Forgot my Internet flash drive at home, so for about 10 days I was Internet-less.
Quite interesting what happened during this time period. I had numerous revelations, most of which were related to past relationships and some were basically concerned about me. I had a deep realization about the superiority-inferiority thing and how it actually goes. I did read about this in Maxwell Maltz' Psycho-Cybernetics, but it clicked on it's own a few days later. A lot of what I perceived to be outer issues actually are within me and my experiences in the past. I've read about this numerous times, but only now did it clicked. A long-awaited welcome, indeed.
When it comes to self-discipline, I find it that I'm on the right track to where I want to be with this, even though at times it's very challenging. Like for instance, there are times where I say to myself "I will abstain from masturbating today" for a few days in a row and I stick to it. Sometimes I fight for it and give in, but I'm not really that worried that I relapsed, I'll know I'll stick to it in the end. If this happened say a year ago, I would've felt bad and blame myself for it. I do have the tendency to do that from time to time, but this thing is slowly dying.
As with the physical aspect of my plan, it's going along GORGEOUSLY. I'm on my 34th day of the P90X and it's absolutely marvelous, I can't believe I look this good. I've never had these looks before, I'm feeling fitter than ever. At times, it's painstakingly hard, but hey, no pain no gain. The only thing I've kinda went "half-assed" about it was the yoga. I get reaaaaaaally bored during it and it's a challenge to go through it from start to finish, mainly because it's an hour and a half long and the first half is mostly the same 4 exercises over and over again ( ashtanga vinyasa stuff, sun salutations, warrior 1,2 and so forth ) mind-numbingly boring, but the latter half is quite nice, i like it. because of this, i'm really prone to either not do it when I'm supposed to and do it on my "day off" from exercise or skip it altogether because of really not being in the mood for it. 5 weeks, it happened 2 times and I had it in my program like 5 times ( today was the 6th time and today I skipped it, doing it tomorrow or sunday, but i am doing it ). Astonishingly, I see the difference yoga made to my body and I'm more flexible now than ever, actually. Not there yet, but it's still quite great.
What I can be, I must be!
