02-05-2014, 07:28 PM
Stage 4, Day 2,
Strange day; I had a lab today, with the one girl, who was my lab partner last week. I had the only guy in my program change time slots and join along because he respects women or something and wants to avoid taking their measurements. Funny enough, right in front of both myself and the guy, the girl comes running along to tag me as her partner. We go as a group of three.
My goodness; there was so much chemistry between myself and that girl. Since he had to take measurements, she wore tight clothes, and I had to keep getting close to take measurements. Geez, I could fuck her right then and there. There was only one measurement that she wouldn't do, and it's understandable, cause it would involve taking off her shirt. So the prof (a female) did it.
A machine told me I had 4.5% body fat; impossible lol.
I had lunch with a couple of people at their home; hard to explain, but they're super kind and have me over on occasion. One of them is part of a religious church that goes around, spreading the word. She isn't in any of the major religions, trust me. Mere thousands.
After that, I went to a computer lab for RefWorks. I learned so much that I'm actually excited to begin the bulk of the project. My extra morning ritual is serving me well.
I've reconsiled the "have to get girls now" thing. Firstly, that pushes way too much pressure on me to perform. Secondly, we'll have to see what this sub will do to me passively, and what it will have me do actively. Third, this particular subliminal is an internal thing. Once I run LTU3.0, refresh AM5.0, and then run SM3.0, I can absolutely focus on being social and women. I can do this from day one of LTU3.0, since I plan on busking out in the streets of my city for massive practice.
After the Refworks thing, I practiced guitar, and then got to work. Work was slow; fortunately, I brought my Anki flashcards and practiced my three languages. The woman manager working there, usually very quiet with me (not out of shyness, just doesn't talk to me), began chatting me up, and asking more questions. I felt more centered, grounded, and more chatty, so I kept it going.
This stage has made me more centered, less needy, though more unsure of myself, as though "is this really possible?". I'm going to run AM continuously tonight instead of mixing it.
Strange day; I had a lab today, with the one girl, who was my lab partner last week. I had the only guy in my program change time slots and join along because he respects women or something and wants to avoid taking their measurements. Funny enough, right in front of both myself and the guy, the girl comes running along to tag me as her partner. We go as a group of three.
My goodness; there was so much chemistry between myself and that girl. Since he had to take measurements, she wore tight clothes, and I had to keep getting close to take measurements. Geez, I could fuck her right then and there. There was only one measurement that she wouldn't do, and it's understandable, cause it would involve taking off her shirt. So the prof (a female) did it.
A machine told me I had 4.5% body fat; impossible lol.
I had lunch with a couple of people at their home; hard to explain, but they're super kind and have me over on occasion. One of them is part of a religious church that goes around, spreading the word. She isn't in any of the major religions, trust me. Mere thousands.
After that, I went to a computer lab for RefWorks. I learned so much that I'm actually excited to begin the bulk of the project. My extra morning ritual is serving me well.
I've reconsiled the "have to get girls now" thing. Firstly, that pushes way too much pressure on me to perform. Secondly, we'll have to see what this sub will do to me passively, and what it will have me do actively. Third, this particular subliminal is an internal thing. Once I run LTU3.0, refresh AM5.0, and then run SM3.0, I can absolutely focus on being social and women. I can do this from day one of LTU3.0, since I plan on busking out in the streets of my city for massive practice.
After the Refworks thing, I practiced guitar, and then got to work. Work was slow; fortunately, I brought my Anki flashcards and practiced my three languages. The woman manager working there, usually very quiet with me (not out of shyness, just doesn't talk to me), began chatting me up, and asking more questions. I felt more centered, grounded, and more chatty, so I kept it going.
This stage has made me more centered, less needy, though more unsure of myself, as though "is this really possible?". I'm going to run AM continuously tonight instead of mixing it.
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