02-04-2014, 08:09 AM
Eh spoke too soon. I think I just got overly excited with this sub. Healing is healing, you can't push it along any faster than you are ready for. It's a hell of a lot faster than anything I could do on my own though.
It's funny when I think about how obsessed I am with getting healing done the right way. Which just points to shame and my need to get things done perfectly. Like I said before, the behaviors and actions I frequently engage in have their roots in negative beliefs about myself. The issue is sometimes they slip right under my radar and are incredibly hard to catch.
I just have to learn to relax more and let things be instead of trying to force it along. Which I probably have trouble with because I'm an overthinker, and my obsessive thinking is a way for me to further distance myself from my emotions and maintain control. But it's a kind of neurotic control, not real control.
It's funny when I think about how obsessed I am with getting healing done the right way. Which just points to shame and my need to get things done perfectly. Like I said before, the behaviors and actions I frequently engage in have their roots in negative beliefs about myself. The issue is sometimes they slip right under my radar and are incredibly hard to catch.
I just have to learn to relax more and let things be instead of trying to force it along. Which I probably have trouble with because I'm an overthinker, and my obsessive thinking is a way for me to further distance myself from my emotions and maintain control. But it's a kind of neurotic control, not real control.
