01-30-2014, 07:44 PM
Stage 3 Day 28(29),
I'm less "Alpha" than I've considered myself as becoming. My emotional state is kind of crap; not angry, not sad. It's some sort of irritation and stuck-ness. I've tried some guiding thoughts; it has done a bit of good towards fixing it, which is all I could ask for.
I realize now that I value my time as the most precious commodity in my life right now, over money and relationships. I prefer working alone much more for that reason. When my time is wasted, it feels like someone has their hands in my bank account and is grabbing one dollar at a time. I'm thinking "no disrespect, but stop that".
I realize that time is all we have. So I have to dedicate a specific amount of time to school, a specific amount of time to my job, time to practice my instruments, for the gym and eating, for my morning rituals, to study.
AND THEN, when summer comes, I want to be a social master and a busker AS WELL as working more than full-time.
I got a bit extreme and said to myself: "If I have to sleep only 2 hours a night to make that come true, so be it." Damn, that's not very much. Hypersleep could be of some assistance, but that'd be dumb to use everynight.
So, I have to work at making my actions as efficient as possible, which is why I respect my time.
Today, it was hard to get anything specific done, given that I went to a job fair and went for groceries before work.
Looking forward to Stage 4.
I'm less "Alpha" than I've considered myself as becoming. My emotional state is kind of crap; not angry, not sad. It's some sort of irritation and stuck-ness. I've tried some guiding thoughts; it has done a bit of good towards fixing it, which is all I could ask for.
I realize now that I value my time as the most precious commodity in my life right now, over money and relationships. I prefer working alone much more for that reason. When my time is wasted, it feels like someone has their hands in my bank account and is grabbing one dollar at a time. I'm thinking "no disrespect, but stop that".
I realize that time is all we have. So I have to dedicate a specific amount of time to school, a specific amount of time to my job, time to practice my instruments, for the gym and eating, for my morning rituals, to study.
AND THEN, when summer comes, I want to be a social master and a busker AS WELL as working more than full-time.
I got a bit extreme and said to myself: "If I have to sleep only 2 hours a night to make that come true, so be it." Damn, that's not very much. Hypersleep could be of some assistance, but that'd be dumb to use everynight.
So, I have to work at making my actions as efficient as possible, which is why I respect my time.
Today, it was hard to get anything specific done, given that I went to a job fair and went for groceries before work.
Looking forward to Stage 4.
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